Death Wish

I have always fantasised about being killed.. the story usually goes like this :

  I am young, maybe 15, and I have developed - my large breasts are tipped with big round nipples, and my flat toned stomach leads wonderfully down to my neat pussy, my lips swollen and engorged, clitoris proudly on display. I have been captured and my hands are cuffed behind my back, a ball-gag in my mouth. I am totally nude.

  I am wide-eyed as I am paraded up and down in front of the large crowd. We are in what appears to be a vast underground bunker, far from any other human civilisation, isolated. I see before me a collection of torture devices, ranging from the simple to the extremely elaborate, and I know why I have been brought here. I have heard of this place, I have dreamt of this place, I know I belong here..

  There is silence as my body is inspected- the crowd surround me, and my throat is grabbed as my breasts are pulled and pinched, my pussy smacked and my ass squeezed roughly. I am pushed to my knees and five or six men repeatedly slap my face with their huge penises as I look up at them with a mixture of fear, arousal and deep, deep desire in my eyes..

   I notice that the crowd are all wearing black masks, covering their faces as a man in a long flowing robe approaches, parting the throng of people gathered around me. The man indicates for the crowd to cease playing with my body, and they all step back..

    " Welcome to heaven and hell, pleasure and pain, life and death... you will experience things here unimaginable to normal human beings, you will endure exquisite feelings, you will beg to suffer as you discover your true nature and desire, you will yearn to pay the ultimate price...

     You will not leave this room alive- you will give yourself to us completely, you will be ours, we will play your body like a fine instrument, and then we kill you - you have been chosen ! "

 

  The words leave me reeling in shock- I cannot believe what was just said to me ! Surely this man can't be serious.. my heart is beating fast now, I am really scared, but my pussy is throbbing, making a liar out of me. I don't want to die, I'm only 15, I don't want to be killed really, I just have recurring fantasies of being impaled in front of a huge crowd on a spear, of it being pushed slowly into my lower belly, of me looking down in wonder as I feel the glorious final ecstacy of it piercing my insides, of shouting my thanks as my breasts are whipped, of floating away in the most submissive act possible..

     I know that what the man says is true though, and fear flashes through me again, but my pussy is soaking now, I've never been so wet, I really need attention.. I'm led to a low table, my handcuffs are removed and I'm instructed to get on all fours- almost immediately I feel a huge cock enter me, sliding in to the hilt, filling me completely- I push back onto it, greedily enjoying the thrusts as it rams into me. All I can do is groan through my gag in pleasure as I feel penises slapping my cheeks again.

 Suddenly my ball-gag is removed and a penis is in my mouth- I'm gagging as it forces its way down my throat, but I open as wide as I can to allow it in as far as possible. My ass is spanked very very hard as I draw close to my first orgasm, and then it hits me and I shake wildly as my face is covered in cum, my pussy filled as well..

      I feel warm liquid running down my back and through my ass crack, over my pussy and I realise that one of the men is pissing on me- I'm deeply aroused by this humiliating act and I want him to piss on my face, so I turn over and lie on my back, my mouth open and pussy stretched wide from the fucking I've had. More men step forward and I'm being drenched in warm urine- some of them are directing their streams into my pussy, some on my breasts and some into my mouth- I feel like an animal and I adore it....

  " Enough ! " shouts the man in charge and the urinating stops. He helps me to my feet and looks at me. " You have been chosen " he repeats, " do you accept your fate ? "

  My thoughts are different now, it's as if one part of my brain has been shut off and another part opened.. I feel as if I'm in a trance but at the same time as if I have never been as alive as I am right now.. the feelings are so much more intense than my fantasies have been... it's almost like I don't want to be honest with myself, to admit to myself that I want it SO badly, that I've always wanted it, that I need it, that this is the reason I exist, that I HAVE to give myself totally...

    

         " Yes " I reply.

 

I am led to an area of the floor where four rings are bolted into the concrete- I am instructed to lie down, and my wrists and ankles are tied so I am spread, on my back. Next to me there is a table with some strange objects I can't identify on it, and someone wheels forward a mobile staircase, the kind you might see in a warehouse. To begin with, some of the crowd stand on me, using their whole weight on my tits, my belly, my thighs and my pussy. Their shoes crush my nipples and did viciously into my flesh, and a woman with slight heels slowly increases the pressure around my clit until her whole weight is on one leg, pressing into me. One man bounces up and down on my tits, and I moan as the pain flows through me..

  I realise that this is only the warm-up, because then I see people go to the table, pick up objects and begin to climb the staircase. A woman reaches the third step and leans out, her arm outstretched- I now see she is holding a studded metal ball, which although small looks heavy. She looks down and our eyes meet, and we have a very intense moment of pure understanding, and then she takes aim and drops the ball..

  It thuds into my stomach deliciously, causing instant pain and a wonderful resonating noise of my insides almost slapping together. I gasp in pleasure, and as the ball rolls off me, I raise my head and see a beautiful red and white mark where it had impacted. A man prepares to drop another ball, this time with larger studs and generally bigger, and heavier, in dimensions. I see him holding it, and relax my body as much as I can, welcoming the pain into me, my mouth opening and an almost subconscious " yes " escaping my lips..

 This time the ball hits my left breast, squashing it almost flat, crushing it. The pain is intense, and I'm so aroused now that I ask for more.. More quickly now, the balls drop onto me, bigger each time, impacting all over my body, slamming into my soaking pussy, bruising me wonderfully. I need to be fucked again, and I'm desperate, so I beg.. " please, fuck me... I need to be fucked, anyone, anything, FUCK ME !! " I feel something enter me, it's warm but it feels very strange, and as I raise my head to look I see a woman is fucking me with her foot ! She is slowly penetrating me more and more, at first just a couple of toes but then all her toes are inside my pussy, and she continues to push more in as she pumps me. I feel stretched very wide but I'm in ecstasy as she fucks me harder now, almost kicking me in my cunt..!

 I feel like less than an animal now, but I'm transported to a place I wasn't sure existed, a place of sheer sexual bliss where I don't think, I don't have an opinion, I don't speak, I'm not worth anything as a human being, I'm just fucked, fucked like the slave I've always wanted so deeply to be, used and abused gloriously, over and over...

   My mouth is open as I groan gutturally in sexual abandonment, and a bare foot is thrust in- I lick the toes vigorously as the foot continues to pound my vagina, and then a man stands on my chest, a foot on each tit, and moves his weight from one to the other, crushing them brutally... I can't hold back, and I come and come and come.....

      As I pant in the aftermath of my orgasm, my wrists and ankles are untied, but I lie still, my body still shaking with pleasure, my mind resigned to my fate and even looking forward to what will happen next.. the crowd circle me, prodding me with their feet as I Iie spreadeagled, red and sweating- I look up and see the eyes behind the masks.. it's an intensely beautiful feeling as I lie still, un-restrained, willingly under their control, submitting to them totally, my body offered to them to fuck, torture, use and abuse.. I smile a genuine, warm smile and then I remember that they will have my complete submission, that they will kill me as I want so much, fulfilling my deepest, truest desire, and I feel those delicious butterflies in my belly.. " thank you.." I murmur..

  

   Suddenly, a man approaches with some thin rope and begins to circle my breasts separately, right at the base, and pulls the rope tight. My tits bell out like domes and feel very tight, almost like they're about to burst. The man attaches the ropes to 2 metal rings bolted into the ceiling, and begins to hoist me up.. my tits feel like they are about to be ripped from my body, as all my weight is pulling on them, and the pain is so intense that I cross over to the magic place where there is just pure sensation, and I enjoy what is happening to me- for a moment I think about the very real damage that might be caused, but then I think (feeling the butterflies very strongly) that it doesn't really matter anyway because soon I will be killed..

     As I hang, gently swinging form the ropes, I throw my head back and open my arms in submission. I begin to feel something hot near my ass cheek, and then all of a sudden, a bright, burning sting slices through my euphoria.. I turn my head to try and see what is happening, and I see a man holding a metal rod, the end shaped into a small disc. At first I'm not sure what the implement is, but then I realise, as my cunt throbs even harder, that the man is holding a branding iron...!

    He brands me again on the other ass cheek, pressing it into my skin for longer this time- the intense, white-hot burn of the branding iron combined with the overwhelming aching pull on my breasts is drawing me closer to another mind-shattering orgasm, and as I thrash around in mid-air like a rag doll, I feel hands pulling my butt apart, exposing my asshole.. There is a moment when the man lets my impending fate sink in, as I feel cool air tickle my sensitive ring, and then in an instant there is everything and nothing, heaven and earth, the beginning and the end.. the branding iron is pushed and held on my asshole....

   I scream and scream because I can't help myself, and I thrash around, pulling even more on my strangled tits, strange gurgling sounds coming from my throat, as my body and mind face the pain, the incredible elevation of physical and mental experience.. I'm detached from my surroundings now, in a different world, a higher plain where there is just me and what I am feeling.. I know what must happen next, what I must have, what I need so desperately, what I was born for, what I am, what is me....

      And then it happens, and I'm on another planet, in another universe, speaking in tongues, free, beyond even ecstasy, somewhere higher still, a state of permanent, total, orgasm........ the man brands me right on my clitoris, and won't stop...........

I know that my end is near now- I have been used brutally by the crowd and their patience is running out.. they want my blood. The only decision left to make is how I will be killed..

  I have always wanted it to be a knife or a spear, or something sharp stabbing me, possibly in many places at the same time, or maybe in a sequence.. I know the final moment should be either into my lower belly, or up into my pussy- I am pleased to learn that I will be be able to dictate my final act myself.

  " The time has come.. we will begin the preparations ! "

  I decide that I want to suffer as much as I can before I die, so I ask for metal skewers to be driven through my breasts. I choose to be scratched all over my body with metal combs, and cut with knives.. the final act will be with a special piece of equipment, one I have dreamt about for so long...

       The ceremony begins with a speech given by the man who spoke earlier..

         " We now reach the end of our rituals ! The final act will begin. All who are present understand this ritual, and it's final conclusion.. you have decided on the final details, so now we commence ! "

  I walk forward of my own accord, my bruised, branded and aroused body displayed for all to see, and lie un-tied on my back, on a marble altar that has been brought forward. It's quite warm (as I asked) and I relax with my arms above my head. I know that there is no turning back now, that this is the beginning of the end, that I will be killed in the ultimate sexual sacrifice, the most submissive and erotic act possible, that I will even beg for it, that I want  to beg for it, that I want everyone to know that I'm nothing, not human, just sex, just an animal that doesn't deserve anything else, an animal that recognizes its place, that wants to be ruined, fucked and killed in front of the audience, the tribe..... I am so aroused now I'm almost going to faint....

     The skewers are distributed through the crowd, and the first one is wielded by a young-seeming woman with long, flowing brown hair. She runs her hand over my face gently, then down my body, brushing my straining nipples, and on down to my wet, wet pussy. She easily slides three fingers inside me, and slowly pumps me for a few moments, looking into my eyes.. all I can do is gasp and nod, my eyes wide and pleading and my mouth open.. She can see the need in me, so slowly raises the skewer up to my right breast- she touches the very sharp point to the underside, and pushes back and forth without breaking my skin, giving me a chance to ready myself for the full penetration....

   And then suddenly she drives it up through my breast until it's poking out the top- at first I don't feel anything, I'm in shock, but then the pain begins, and my eyes bulge at its ferocity... I twist my head violently from side to side to try and make sense of it, and within a short time, I understand it, and then it begins to feel soooo good, the thin sharp metal driven through my soft, willing flesh, and as I raise my head to see my impalement, my internal inferno starts on a journey to a place of unimaginable intensity...

  A man is next in line- he chooses my left tit, and pierces me from left to right, just behind the nipple.. this is more painful still, but stokes the fire within me even more, and I am panting, my chest heaving up and down, eager to have more.. The skewers continue until I have them from all angles, all sides- there is surprisingly little blood, and I am not feeling anything that could be described as pain anymore. I am beyond, far beyond into a magical, heavenly euphoric bliss where I feel only sensation, pure stimulation, sexual, mental, everything.. it's just how I imagined it would be..

    I savour the new and very exciting feeling of having metal through my body- as I writhe in delight on the altar, I feel the skewers in my tits move, pulling on my breast-meat wonderfully, contorting them, hurting them, damaging them..

     

       The skewers are now all driven through my body, so it's time to be cut.. I have chosen some very, very sharp knives, with a blade of only an inch, so if anyone decides to actually push one into me, it won't detract from the final event.. I'm blindfolded at this point (as I requested) and so I can feel people around me but can't prepare for the first cut- I am so ready that I arch my back as much as I can, offering up my flat, toned stomach and my swollen and slightly bleeding skewered breasts.. I part my legs, an invitation to cut my pussy, and I feel my mouth opening wide again as I tip my head back, almost of its own accord..

   I feel two blades press into my stomach, either side of my belly button, just by hips and I gasp as the pressure increases and my skin is cut- I feel as if someone is painting in my mind with electricity as the blades are drawn down towards my pussy, leaving long shallow gashes in my tummy.. next, I feel a single blade this time, pricking me gently on my lower belly, pushing in and out, teasing me.. without thinking, my hands fly down, grabbing the wrist and pulling down hard, stabbing the blade into myself- I feel a tidal wave of sensation crash through my being, a shattering orgasm, followed by another, and another....

   I can sense the crowd now, spurred on my display of self-abuse, forgetting their last morals and inhibitions, wanting to fully enjoy the savagery and primeval lust- I feel sharp points on my thighs, quickly slicing down, and then my legs are lifted up by the ankles, and spread apart, exposing my wide-open cunt and my ass cheeks fully.. I am yelping loudly now, as I feel blades stab me in my buttocks and my lips slit, and I scream in joy/fear/pain/pleasure/wonder as my clit is prodded over and over again, sending me off into space as several more intense orgasms wrack my body....

       My body is now a covered in marks, with many obvious long cuts, and some pinpricks oozing blood, the skewers all still through my breasts.. I know that the time has arrived, and that everything that has happened so far is a million times more enjoyable than I had dared imagine possible.. I am in a state of being that is almost impossible to describe- I feel that I am in heaven, walking among the stars, just pure sensation, pure animal lust, ready to have the final utmost pleasure, wanting it so desperately, wanting to show myself in this most submissive of acts, yearning to be sacrificed, killed in public, for all to see and enjoy...

    

     " You know what must happen know, don't you.. " I hear a voice say. " Yes.. oh yes..! " I whisper back.

My blindfold is removed, and I am helped off the altar and to my feet. I am led, cut, bruised, bleeding and skewered to a device a little way away. It is a frame, roughly two meters high, made from metal and in the shape of a box- it has a cross piece, on which I can see wrist-cuffs, and rising from the base and pointing vertically there is a pole, shaped into a large dildo at the end. It is exactly as I had asked, and I am pleased..

    I stand inside the frame and my wrists are fastened, and then my ankles are tied to my thighs, my legs bent up completely, leaving me dangling. The audience have now crowded around the frame, so close they can touch me, see into my wide eyes.. I part my legs as much as I can to allow the dildo into my cunt- I am so wet after everything that has happened that it slides in easily, and the automatic sensors drive it right up inside me, filling me completely.. I now begin to be fucked by this automated robotic invention of mine, pounded brutally, stretched wide... the crowd are all around, some masturbating as they watch me being fucked helplessly, staring at me, fascinated, touching me, a couple of women stroking my face.. the speed increases, ramming into my open, willing cunt, mercilessly drilling into me- I can feel that I am near to my greatest orgasm yet, one so big that nothing will ever come close again, one that I will do anything for, suffer anything for, beg for, die for.....

  And then unbelievably, the machine stops ! I am left hanging, the huge dildo all the way inside my pussy, my swollen lips stretched and stuck to sides of it, head hanging forward, panting heavily, chest heaving up and down, up and down...

  I know why the machine has stopped, though... I look up as I hear a voice say " tell us what you desire ! "

              

         " Kill me ! " I say, looking around at the audience. " Finish me ! "

         " Are you sure ? "

        " Yes ! I'm sure ! "

        " Tell us why we should.. "

        " Because I want you to.. because I need  you to.. I want you to kill me now, I want to be yours, I want to show you that I am yours, that you can use me and then kill me, that I exist and have only ever existed for your enjoyment, for your every desire, for your sexual pleasure... I am just a fuck-slave, I am an animal, a sex animal... I have always been only a sex animal.......

     This has been my destiny forever, I've known it and yearned for it all my life, it's all I've ever wanted..!

        I need to be killed like this, in front of you all, I need to be killed in the ultimate sexual way, it's just me.......! "

        

        " We want to hear you beg ! "

            " Please kill me ! PLEASE KILL ME !! I want you to kill me !!! I want to die for you, for you all... I beg you, turn the machine back on !!!! PLEASE !!!! P-L-E-A-S-E !!!!!!!

   And then I feel the pumping start again, and I know that it's coming.. the dildo rams in and out, in and out, and I know the orgasm to end all orgasms is on its way... the dildo enlarges inside me, stretching my vagina well beyond anything I've experienced, but I want it desperately..! the speed of the dildo increases, and I look around at the audience, smiling in wonder, thanking them, thanking them... I feel a cane biting visciously into my ass cheeks, and it's wonderful, I can feel it building......

  I am screaming now in ecstasy, as it comes closer.. the skewers in my young swollen tits jangle, hitting each other in my soft flesh, the bloods streams down my stomach in rivers now, flowing from the cuts I enjoyed earlier, the sensations are nearly overwhelming me but I hold on for the final explosion.... IT'S VERY NEAR NOW, AND I KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN, AND I WANT IT, I WANT IT, I WANT IT !!!! I'M GOING TO BE KILLED IN FRONT OF AN AUDIENCE, IN THE MOST SUBMISSIVE SEXUAL WAY POSSIBLE, LIKE I HAVE ALWAYS DREAMED OF, I'VE BEGGED FOR IT, I'VE PLEADED FOR IT, I REQUESTED EACH AND EVERY ORDEAL, MY BODY HAS BEEN USED, THRASHED, CUT, PIERCED, I'VE BECOME THE NOTHING THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE, THE FUCK-SLAVE, THE ANIMAL, EVERYTHING IS ABOUT SEX NOW, PURE SEX, PURE SEX... I KNOW IT WILL HAPPEN IN A MATTER OF SECONDS, I KNOW THAT IN A FEW SECONDS I WILL DIE, I WILL BE TAKEN COMPLETELY, THE WAY WE ALL DREAM ABOUT IN OUR DARKEST MOMENTS, I KNOW THAT ANY MOMENT THE SWORD, THE GLORIOUS DOUBLE-EDGED SWORD WILL BURST FROM THE DILDO UP THROUGH MY BODY, UP INTO ME, INTO MY TUMMY, SLICING THROUGH MY SOFT WILLING INSIDES, STABBING ME SO TOTALLY, PIERCING ME AT MY VERY CORE, TAKING ME IN THE MOST COMPLETE WAY, KILLING ME THE WAY I HAVE FANTASIZED ABOUT, THE WAY I HAVE WANTED FOR SO LONG, FULFILLING MY DEEPEST DESIRE..... AND THEN, AND THEN, NEARLY, NEARLY THERE, OH GOD, OH GOD, I'M GOING TO COME, I'M GOING TO COME, OHHHHHH MMMMMMMMY GODDDDDDDDD... IT'S HHHHHAAAAAPPPPEEEENNNNNIIIINNNNGGGG.....