Degradation or liberation ?? My facinating journey towards the whoredom!

Chapter one: Upbringing

I am Nisha...my name means Night! I was born in a city in India. The only chlild to my parents. My mom was housewife and dad worked with the government. We didnt have much relatives. It was just the three of us all the time.Just before I was born we came to this city much away from my grandparents.

Mom was very strict, she used to get angry on me and scold me every now and then. Her punishments were very severe, she used to spank me with cooking spatula or anything thats available till i get pink red skin and i fell unconscious. She used to lock me in the cupboard or in a very small dark, dusty, filthy room we used to keep our household crap things for hours. Often when my dad came from office, he used to let me free. I used to be without light, ventilation, food or water for full days locked inside.

I always found myself alone with no friends to play. When I was locked inside, I could hear some adult male voices in our home. My mom had a boyfriend who used to come home once my dad went to office. He used to  have a sex with my mom for hours, I could always hear my mom screaming all afternoon while I used to gasp for fresh air and water. I didnt know at that time that its a sex, I thought like my mom hits me its that man who hits my mother. My mom had threatened me not to tell anything to my dad or she will kill me. I took it for real and never told anything to my dad. My dad was a very simple, straightforward man. He always come late from office work and eat and go to sleep. My mom always had huge fights with my dad at night during dinner. Mom makes sure there wont be any sex with dad by fighting with him on small issues.  

As far as I remember I was just 5 years old. One day I was beaten up as usual for the reason I dont remember, till i got bruises all over my back and I was locked in the closet. after few hrs my mom's boyfriend came home and in a hurry stared stripping my mom. I was able to see this for the first time in my life from the gap between the door of the closet. It was really weird experience for me. Initially i thought he is going to hit her..but after he stripped her naked, he started kissing her all over her body, mom was moaning, biting her lips hard, becoming suffocated, still she hold him tighter ! I was very confused..if that man is teasing her why she is not running away? why she is holding him even more tight? I had no idea when my hands travelled to my pussy and I started fingering myself. it was surely not for arousing myself...but I felt some support when my fingers were in my pussy. i didnt took my hands off untill the my mom & her boyfriend laid down on the floor..the part i couldnt see from my closet. That was the very life changing day for me.I kept rubbing my pussy every time I was locked, it became a permanent habit for me. Anything frightening happened, I would slid my fingers inside my pussy, anything good happen I slid my fingers in my pussy. The feeling I got from the fingering was very confunsing, weird and wanting! It gave me a weird type of courage-a courage that could make me go ahead which is probably not good for me. When mom start hitting me, i would rub my pussy and provoke her more to lose her balance and she would hit me even more...or would give harshest punishment..it was really weird...when rubbing my pussy i would behave exactly opposite of what I should have behaved to rescue myself... but still it was really a wanting thing for me.

My school was going on like a routine task. I never mixed up with any girls, i didnt have any friends outside school...I didnt play with anybody, I would do my homework and go to sleep.

When I was 10 my dad got a transfer at workplace and we shifted to another city, far away from the old one. My mom suddenly stopped hitting me, she would not speak with me much though. She would cook and go out somewhere and would come back by the time dad come home. I was no longer locked forcefully though I was alone in my home. I could have invited my school friends at home or have played with the kids from around, but I didnt. I would come home, shut all the curtains, make dark at home and start fingering my pussy, it would take few hours till I passed out..i would wake up when my mom came home.

I was not bad at my studies, I was average student. When I was in 9th grade my school got shifted to a new place. I would catch a train and travel for an hour. Some other kids too were always there in the train but I never mixed up with them, or had any fun. Something happened one day during my train journey that would change my life forever!

Opportunity missed!

I was 15 in the 10th grade. I started looking beautiful. I had white skin, dark black hair halfway back-down the shoulders, neatly dressed and looking beautiful young lady.  One day I was going to school in the train. As usual I was lost in my own world watching trees and houses passing by. And a middle aged woman approached me. She sat next to me and smiled. I never smile to anyone..but some how I smiled back at her. She started talking to me, and engaged me in the conversation. She was very nice & kind to me. No woman of her age had ever talked to me so friendly. I was elated. My mom never talked to me like this. she said she had a daugher of my age and asked me if I would like to meet her someday. I said sure i would! She was extremely happy hearing my affirmative answer. she came closer, pressed my hand, kissed my cheeks and said I would be really happy to see her.   My dad had given me strict warning not to talk to strangers or go out with them. I should go straight to school and come back. No straying from this routine. But I immediately liked her, so much that I promised her that once my exam is over, I would come with her at her home which was just one stop before my school.  From that day onwards we would meet in the train everyday....she would stare at me all the time and when I look back at her she would give me a nice smile. She said i am a very gorgeous girl, that I had the most beautiful eyes in the world. Everyday I kept liking her more and more. She became my best friend. She would run her fingers thru my hair, put her arms around my shoulders sometimes run finger over my eyes, jaw lines, lips just to tell me I am a very beautiful girl. I would cherish that. BUT inside there was something going on in my mind which I thought worth a shame. I thought I would run away with this lady, good bye my home and live with her forever... well my thoughts might be speaking thru my eyes...may be! She assessed that i am a lonely, secluded girl...She would pamper me even more..but I would feel guilty or nervous. I dont know what to say...but I kinda felt thrilled everyday I see her!

She had a different plans for me that would change my life...forever!

Chapter two: Her home..or is it?

My exams were finished...next day onwards I had a month long vacation..but I decided to fake I am going for the exam for one more day... I was very happy, thrilled and nervous...I was doing something which was not allowed by my parents. I dunno why but I was shaking out of this step i was taking...I wore new undergarments that day...why? I simply had no answer...I put best of best make up..cleaned my shoes... and I left the home. I entered the same coach as usual and there she was! smiling at me! I smiled back at her pleasantly! Inside I was more frightened, but I was going ahead anyway! Never in my life I had a time put with anybody except my parents on rare occasions. She asked me to sit next to her...I sat obdiently...she was in a very good mood today! She kissed me impatiently on my left cheek multiple times in a succession and hugged me hard...I was elated, a bit frigntened...my pussy started throbbing...with er touch I realized something is very wrong happening...but I was all for it! In fact I wanted something wrong to happen with me!What exactly? I dunno!  She was a woman and I was not attracted to her physically! I was dreaming something else...may be her husband is like my mom's boyfriend...may be he would liken me...may be...may be! I would lost in imagining things and her touching would bring me back to reality! What if she would kidnap me? then what? How would my dad react? who will tell them? What if she is a bad person? Am I doing right or not? Should I leave her and rush back to my home?? A STRONG NO! resounded from my subconscious! We had news doing rounds that some women kidnap girls, cut their vital parts or make them blind and turn them into beggers in the different cities... there were some gangs who do this! when I recalled this, I started shakinging and sweating...but STILL FROM INSIDE MY MIND SAID...IT COULD BE FUN TOO..."DONT RUN AWAY...LET HER DO WHAT SHE WANTS TO DO! You will enjoy everything even you are kidnapped!" I was shocked I had such a thinking! on my own i moved closer to her...she kissed me on my forehead...my heart was pounding million times!

We alighted the train and started walking. she was walking real fast, I was lagging behind her...she grabbed my hand and pulled me to her...I could experience her changed behavior towards me...but she said she got late that day and worried if her daughter is okay! Ohh the daughter! Right ! I was almost forgot about her dreaming about what! I was saddened that I am only going to meet that stupid girl and talk stupid things! I was imagining things as we walked and walked for how long I dunno...may be some 40 min! I lost the track of the roads we took! As i kept looking back for the clues, she said in a harsh sound that I never heard before that she would drop me back so I should not worry about the road! I was surprised how she came to know whats in my mind! After walking for few more minutes there was a old car waiting out side...as we stopped, a bald fat man wearing dirty clothes came out and samiled at her and looked at me with a very different gaze! He was too ugly and dirty...I felt terrifying!  he was smoking something something very pungent much different from the regular cigratte. I knew the smell of tobacco..my mom's boyfriend used to smoke at out home... he immediately threw the cigar away and opened the door of the car... She asked me to sit inside...I was reluctant! for the first time I was stopped! as I was going to ask her where are we going...she said just sit in the car my home is nearby...dont make a drama here...! Her eyes were dry and emotionless..."get into the car kid" came the harsh words from that bald man...now I was really panicked...I started sobbing immeiately and asked "where are we going?"  On that, she toned down a bit and said to meet my daughter...why?? she rubbed her hands on my shoulders, giving me assurance of some sort! I dodnt make anymore drama there...as my subconscious once again bounced back...it said if you are getting kidnapped...then isnt that a nice, sexy thing? arent you dreaming this all your childhood?" I have to confess one thing here... may be due to my mom's strict behavior with me, I had started dreaming similar kind of things when I was in our old house....!

As I moved inside the car seat, I could smell foul smell inside the car...that man was very rough, had tatoos on his naked shoulders, he wore a half sleeve vest and had some weird chains with some animal teeth lockets on his neck....as he adjusted himself in the drivers' seat...he grabbed my chin and said something to the lady...they both laughed on that comment...! I began feeling horny one one side and frightened on the other....The lady started communicating with me... she said I am looking very fair today..and asked me whether I am wearing new clothes? to that I was a bit ashemed...hiding that I nodded affirmative...she gently moved her hands all over my new dress and all of a sudden turned her finders on my boobs...I really jumped on the seat but ignoring that she said you look like a grown up beautiful girl! I tried to move away from her...she moved back closer to me and whispered in my ears "why are you afraid of me? I am not your enemy!" and while saying this she rolled my dress close to my panty and asked me "new panty?" I was even more ashemed...I neither say yes nor nodded...she laughed on that akward situation of mine and said I am really a good girl...Bald man was driving car very fast...I had no time to see where we are going as Lady was keeping me occuiped....it was just an hour since I had left my home and things were changing pretty fast!

She hold me with her arms and asked me "Do you read dirty magazines girlie?" I was confused...what she meant by dirty ?? ... Still I said "NO!" I dont read any dirty things...This was my defensive side that was trying to save me...though it was going to be futile as my subconsciuos was more powerful...She took out a magazine of naked girls...just the girls...from the seat pocket and started showing me the girls and explaining the beauty of the nakedness... I became physically restless...she said "we both are girls right? why are you worried? I am not gonna eat you!" I didnt say anything....She paused and hold my chin to her face, "look at me!" am i a bad person?  I nodded in negation...she said may be your mom didnt talked to you like this, but we girls talk all this all the time!" I nodded in agreement. On that she said " I am your friend, right?" raising her hand for a shakehand...i somehow got energitic and said in a confident voice "Yes we are!" She said "then, dont worry! You are fine so far...we will have so much fun!" I smiled in conformance....She said "if you say as I do you will be the happiest person on earth, I promise, you will enjoy so much!" I was listening every word carefully that was going on my ears...I asked her " What do I have to do?" She smiled relaxed and said Dont worry! I will tell you when time comes! but promise me you wont leave our friendship!" I said NO I dont!" I went further to add "I like you so much!" She said " me too dear! Girls like you are made for pleasure!" on that, bald man turned his head to me and left a quick gaze at me, I didnt understand what did she mean by that...but i was not worried anymore!

Some half hour still went by without anybody saying anything...I was looking the spectacle outside window...I dunno where we were heading but it was barren land and car was too fast....I had full day until evening to reach home and it was just the 11am...I was not worried at all...I convinced myself..."You are here to enjoy a secret day out with your friend...so sont be frightened...just enjoy what may come to you!" again with this thought I became horney... amd started imaging something that could be very bad, worst to me being a girl but I would still go ahead and welcome it! Well that was my mind afterall...had gone thru a very bad childhood....

We pulled over after almost an hour. as we got down, i realized its a very village like road...we started walking again...all 3 of us....after few mins there were filthy old ruined makeshift homes...area was full of filth and garbage...some waste drainage was clogged up and its black filthy smelling water was spread all over. Some stray dogs and buffalos were grazing nearby... women in dirty clothes were doing household chorus...some nude kids were playing here and there...we walked in a very old ghetto...the lanes inside were so close only one person could walk freely..it was very dark inside even at 12pm....as we reached sufficient distance lady pushed me hard inside...it was a dark room and there was a staircase going downwards...she pushed me down and we were in the basement of that ghetto...there were several rooms there...whats inside was barely visible...foul smell and worn out walls...floor was rough...I could see some old wooden beds in each room with a thin dirty soiled matterss on them...there was no ventilation...no lights...one candle was lightened there...and some 18 year old semi naked girl was lying on the bed freely. the atmosphere was too frightening, scary and suffocating....well...for those who never ever experienced such in the past! In my case I was very well accoustomed to such atmosphere...and something weird happened ! I was not suffocating, neither I was scared inside...I got horney instantly!! I couldnt believe my own reaction! I didnt show that to her though! I gathered courage and asked her "where is your daughter?" to that question came a hard slap on my face..the face she said was gorgeous! I fell down...the slap was real hard...even harder than my mom's! as I gathered myself and tried to stand up I could see the door closing..it was the lady me and one different man...he was very dark, tall and muscular! Smell of his naked upper body spread inside the soom instantly! I looked in the eyes of the Lady...she was emotionless dry...she slapped hard once again..this time harder and calle d me "bitch!" I really got confused and asked her why she is slapping me...on that she grabbed me inside the adjacent room..it was too deep inside the basement...this room was even filthier...a yello bulb was on..and a table fan was hung on the ceiling...walls were full of cobwebs..paint was worn off and coating was too came off...it was a medium room just a bed and filthy matterss on it....nothing inside... she pushed me inside and asked me to remove my clothes....I have to say eventhough I had wild imaginations of such things to happen to me, I got really frightened and gathering all courage I tried to run outside between the gap of man standing there...trust me my subconscious was TOTALLY AGAINST THIS! IT WAS TELLING ME TO STAY THERE PUT! ENJOY THE ADVANTURE! AND at the same time my mind was doing futile efforts to save me from this...well lets say calamity!

Dark man grabbed my hands from behind and threw me on the bed...i could smell his pungent sweat smell as his body came too close to me! I felt horney...corner of bed hit hard on my forehead and I started crying....then came two hardest ever slaps in succession...on my face....i tried to cover my face...lady grabbed my hair hard and started hitting me with the metal rod that was kept in the corner...It started hurting instantly...my mom had similar punishment but it was wayy mild compared to this one! She slid her hand and removed my panty right thru my legs in a fraction of a second....then she moved her hand and tore out all buttons of my dress and again in a second she removed my dress...now dress and panty were lying in the corner of the room...I was only in my bra and nothing more...my pussy was open for all to see...I slid my hands over my pussy to cover it...and a more intense slap came to my face...lady screamed not to hide my body parts anymore!....she removed remaining bra as well and first time in my life I was completely naked in front of strangers...by body was heated up due to beating i received...and i was trembling....inside I was feeling happy and frightened outside...outside i was very reluctant...I had decided to be a reluctant no matter what...i decided to resist their aggression...but NO TO SAVE MYSELF...BUT TO ENJOY MORE BEATING...AS i stood naked in front of the lady and that dark man, somebody knocked the door.... lady hurriedly opened it...4 men came in...they all were huge...may be some goons or mafia...i dunno....they throw a light of the torch on my body....one man sat on his toes and started inspecting my body...he slid his fingers inside my pussy....MY PUSSY WAS WET! HE SCREAMED LOOK SHE IS HORNEY! I WAS ASHEMED....I AVOIDED LOOKING INTO ANYBODY'S EYES...lady smiled again...i knew she is a genuine whore! I did! She was ready all along for this...right from the time I meet her in the train...." I kicked that man as hard as i could he lost his balance and fell on the floor...he regained balance...stood up and came close to me....! I got scared....i looked at him...he unzipped his pant and took out his huge eracted cock...it was throbbing....I thought he gonna rape me...but he said on the spot..."no dear, not now....i want you to drink my piss right now.... I bite my lips tight closed...he slapped me hard and put his fingers inside my mouth and let his cock grow smaller a bit and then he shoved it inside my mouth and started pissing inside...with his hands he hold my lips tight to his cock...i had no option but to let it in...it was a salty warm piss....from the first drop taste of mouth changed...it was not as bad as i expected it to be....after just a second of drinking my subconscious woke up...it said why I am afraid? I wanted some real thrill in life..right? My mind was confused...it was not ready for anything like this...but it was preparing to give in...my tongue moved a bit inside my mouth over his cock...I decided to savor this moment of my life...outside i was fiddling to go away from his cock....but inside I was enjoying what was really filthy even at that moment...he filled my belly with his piss...my eyes were full of teary water....my face was showing agony...it was perfect deception for them...and only I knew I am enjoying it! I realized lady and others laughing at me. One of the man told lady that they have money ready for me..they will take me to some place much away from this place and there  they will start selling my body....while talking he took some photos of me with his camera phone...I tried to hide my face and I got additional series of slaps...I gave up and let him take my photos...I was just 15 and this was happening to me!

I suddenly remembered my dad and mom! I started crying now...

One silent and patient man hold my hands and asked me to sit on the bed....he sat next to me...he moved his hands freely on my thighs, boobs enought to confuse me arouse me.... he played it very perfectly....i got aroused...he asked me "are you a virgin?" I said "yes" he said okay...he said if i let them do what they want to do I wont be into trouble anymore....i innocently asked what they want me to do..even though I knew what they wanted...he said "nothing! just behave normal...dont resist anything....just enjoy..." I said no!To ease the situation he asked me questions about my family...he asked what my mom do...i said she is an housewife...he said okay....then he asked what my dad do...I said he works with the government...he was taken aback with my answer...he asked what department he work...as i replied he got somewhat uneasy...he said he is a good man..he dont want to hurt me...he can let me go of i dont tell what happened just now...i was sobbing...i said ok! I wont tell anybody anything...

Lady was standing in front of me folding her hands on her waist....that man grabbed my cloths from the floor and gave to me to wear them....i was again confused...but in no state of thinking anything..its was some 3 pm....i slipped into my cloths....man took that lady in another room and there was a loud quarrel in the language I cant speak...then lady came smiling to me...she said she is sorry for all this and she would take me back to my home. I instantly said yes....other men were now silent....

She gave me a glass of water to drink and wash my face....I obeyed...that bald man reappeared...we three walked back to that car...he drove very fast...nobody spoke anything in the journey...as we approached the train station she warned me if I let this out consequences would be dangerous! I nodded accordingly....

We came on the platform as train arrived the duo disappeared in the crowd...i rode the train...sat silently in the corner seat wondering what happened to me just now....I was saved because of my dad's profession...as train reached my destination it was 5pm...i was on time to reach my home...

I was so tired, I threw myself on the neatly kept bed in a cozy comfortable bedroom and passed out!

Little I knew soon I will realize that something has changed in me ....forever!