Part I

All of sudden, I am awaken by a slap to my face.  I open my eyes disoriented.  Kim is looking down at me.  I have always been mesmerized by her looks: although she is of Chinese descent, her features are not typically Asian.  She has long slender hands, very long legs, sexy feet with slender toes and beautifully shaped breasts. Her face, depending on her mood, can either look angelic or devilish. Her long black hair was disheveled, she had just woken up. “I didn't think that you would have been able to fall asleep, I am becoming too nice. Next time, I will have to make it more uncomfortable for you."  Sleep deprivation was one of her favorite treatments, completely effortless for her, with very painful consequences for me, because everything became more difficult: domestic chores, enduring physical pain, etc.  I looked like a salami, my wrist were attached to my thigh cuffs,  a rope chest harness was secured to one of the legs of her bed, another rope binding my legs  ankles together was secured to the opposite wall.  I have no idea how I had managed to fall asleep.  I was completely naked without any blanket, pillow or mattress. I had been shivering for most of the night.  She was definitely displeased, she expected me to remain awake all night, while she was sleeping peacefully in her warm and deliciously comfortable king size bed.  "Open your mouth’’ as soon as I did, she put a funnel in my mouth, squat over me, and relieved herself of all her piss.  Once she was done, she climbed back into her bed to continue her delicious sleep.  I was very cold, I looked at the clock: it was 4:30 am; five or six more hours until Kim would wake up. I need to try to sleep, to get some rest no matter how cold I feel and uncomfortable I am.  Whenever her lover was away on business which was quite often, Kim wanted me to have complete access to me: to torment me, to be served by me, or just to be "entertained.'  

We used to be lovers, we were madly in love with each other, or at least, I thought that we were. I was completely naive and trusted her completely.  Kim is an extremely sensual woman with a brilliant and cruel mind.  I don't know whether she was really in love with at some point; even if she was, eventually I became her project.  What I thought was a manifestation of her love and caring for me was nothing more than a conditioning process.  She began by taking care of all my sexual needs.  It began very sensually, she had the most magical and sensual touch with her fingers and hands.  She would touch my cock, stimulate me, and keep me aroused for extended periods of times while she would tease me with her body, her mouth, and her scent. When, eventually, she would make me cum, all my senses were surrounded by Kim: her body, her face, her touch, her smell, and her scent.  Other times she would tease me with her mouth.  She a mouth designed for blow jobs: very fleshy lips, very soft inside, and no gag-reflex.  Again, she would spend endless time stimulating me, arousing me, and surrounding my senses with her essence. I didn't realize it at the time but as soon as she started taking charge of my sexual needs, our love making  frequency started to decline gradually until basically we never made love any more. It didn't bother me because the sexual pleasure that I experienced through her hands and mouth was sublime. “I want you to depend on me completely for your sexual pleasure, you will have the most amazing experiences, just let go."  It felt so good that I, eventually, surrendered to her initiative.  One day, she told me:” I want you to experience something new, I am sure that you will love it, just trust me." She just stood on the bed, put one of her feet on my cock and started masturbating me.  Her touch was unreal, while she was doing this, she started touching herself.  Her fingers were glistening with her wetness.  She would stop from time to time, dip her finger in her pussy and then stick in my mouth until I had completely cleaned.  She repeated the process several times until she made me cum using her toes.  It was the most intense orgasm that I ever experienced in my life.  When I told her so she smiled and asked me coyly;” You know I had no idea whether you would like to be in such vulnerable position with me standing over you, teasing with my feet, my pussy, my fingers, my wetness and not allowing you to touch any part of my body except for licking my wetness off my fingers." “It was very exciting to be underneath you and you being incomplete control of the action.  I wished that I could have kissed you or licked your pussy."  Now that i think of it, we were kissing only rarely.  She didn't seem into kissing any more.  She made me promise that I wouldn't masturbate anymore; if I felt very excited and needed an orgasm she wanted to care of it, she wanted to be the only one to provide me with sexual pleasure.  I was very flattered that all she cared was satisfying me. 

Kim was lying down next to me but in the opposite direction, she was touching my cock very sensually. “I want you to admire my feet." that said, she dangled one of her feet just a few inches from lips.  ”Aren’t they beautiful and sexy?  There are so many men who lust after my feet, did you know that?"  They were extremely sexy, size 8.5, slender with long toes which were perfectly proportioned, even the toe nail bed, always perfectly manicured with dark nail polish. Putting her foot closer to my mouth while continuing to touch me, I had a raging erection "Smell the aroma of my feet! Isn't it intoxicating?"  I followed her instructions.  I am not sure  what it was, the way she was touching me, her sensual voice, but I found the smell of her very stimulating "Inhale deeply"; the deeper I inhaled, the more intoxicated I felt" Think of how much pleasure my feet have given you.' She had been keeping me on the edge of an orgasm while she was teasing me with her feet' with a low tone, I heard saying" Wouldn't you like to cum? “when I nodded she added" Open your mouth and venerate my foot, kiss it, lick it make love to my foot." I was so excited, I obeyed. I was surprised: venerating her foot, licking it, and making love to it with my mouth made even more excited and I literally exploded in her hand. As i was climaxing she kept on pushing her foot deeper into my mouth.  when I was completely spent, she gently removed it, she snuggled up to me and said" How did you like my foot?' when I told her that I found it unbelievingly exciting, she  just smiled darkly said "Very good" got up from the bed and started getting dressed. “I thought that we were going to spend the rest of the evening together."  Playfully she said “I know that you are disappointed actually I hope that you would. I want to try something, just trust me.  I have prepared a "survival" kit  for you; there are some leather gloves worn extensively by me, bra that I wore for the past couple of days, my stained panties, a t-shirt infused with my perfume, and my worn sliders."  I had a puzzled look on my face" I will call you in a couple of hours, promise me that when I do, you will play my game...one more thing I want you to wait for my call in your bedroom surrounded by my survival kit  ok?"  I promised and she left. I waited impatiently for her call two hours  went by, three hours, finally after four and half hours she called purring" Did you miss me?" "What have you been doing? Why are you calling me so late?" I said brusquely. "Look if you are not happy to talk to me, I will hang up." No please don't" I missed her terribly already and being surrounded by her things, her scent, and her smell made things even worse. "Only if you ask nicely" "Kim, please don't hang up, I would love to be able to you."  ”i want you to start touching yourself; I know that I have made you promised that you wouldn't but now you can go ahead. Touch yourself. Now take the leather gloves and drape them on your chest, put the shoes next to your face, and my panties over your nose. Keep on touching yourself...how does it feel? Isn’t it better when I touch you?"  There was no comparison her touch was so much more sensual and stimulating" Yes, you have the most magical touch"" I want you to imaging that the gloves are my hands playing with your chest, I am wearing the sliders next to you and you can smell my feet and visualize my sexy toes, think of how much pleasure they have given you, now focus on the panties, inhale deeply my scent, think how good I taste. Inhale, imagine my feet, keep on touching yourself, inhale, and think of my pussy, make yourself cum...Do it now” Almost on command I came.  "How did you like it?" “It is not the. Same as when we are together but, it was pretty incredible.'  ”I want you to enclose the items of the survival kit in your Gucci leather traveling bag to preserve the aromas. Good night. Sleep well." that said you hanged up. I felt really
 strange, I felt that Kim was trying to control me but I liked it.

Kim wanted me to focus on her feet.  From playfully teasing me with her feet we eventually transitioned to where her feet became the focal point of our interaction. In order to see her naked, being touched by her, or having any kind of intimacy, first I had to show her my love and my devotion: the more passionately  I massaged, venerated, worshiped and made love with my mouth to her feet, the more Kim felt my love and my devotion.  This new development started having an effect on our relationship.  Kim seemed to become more demanding of attention and started requiring small services: bring me this, do the laundry, etc. My demeanor also changed I became more compliant.  When I told her that I felt that, although it wasn't natural, I was enjoying how our relationship had evolved.  She was very pleased to hear that.  When I confided in her that I hadn't had an erection in months that either wasn’t a result of her playing with me or talking to me in person or over the phone while I was following her instructions on what to do with my "survival" kit, and that even when I watched porn or saw a beautiful woman on the street I couldn't get an erection. Kim smiled darkly “Really, you mean that you have become completely dependent on me for any kind of sexual gratification? You don't even the typical morning erection? Or any kind of arousal other when I am involved" you asked cooing “Yes isn't it weird?"" I was hoping that you would become totally dependent on me but I never dreamed that I would have this kind of control over you.  We need to test it. I am going to take away your survival kit and not call you or talk to you for a week; you can go to strip clubs, watch porn, whatever you need to do to have an erection and an orgasm.  I will see you next Sunday at 5pm." that you said you grabbed your kit and you left. I was bewildered, I thought that she loved me but I just realized that she had been manipulating me all along.  Devastated, I just on my couch and cried. I wanted to break her spell, I went to strip clubs, got lap dances, went to massage parlors; nothing not a chance of getting an erection. Reluctantly, I met with Kim on Sunday" so did you manage to get an erection and have an orgasm?"  I was tempted to lie to her but I decided to tell her the truth “No I tried I didn't have an orgasm, I didn't even manage to get an erection."  ”Did you try hard?" as she was talking her eyes drifted to my crotch "Oh my god, you have a humongous erection, I haven't even touched you" "it is your voice” “just my voice?" "Yes..."

Kim had a triumphant look on her face “before we move to the next phase I want to train you first to cum without any touching, just with my voice and fantasizing about my feet."  I was hurt; I felt she was treating me like a dog, or that i was part of an experiment. When she noticed my upset look, she sat down on the couch with one foot she started massaging my cock while with the other started teasing my mouth. I had no idea what was happening, in no time, I was begging her to allow me to venerate her foot.  As soon as she allowed I exploded.  "You see how much you need me?"  If you want any kind of sexual satisfaction, you will have to do what I want." I'll be right back.  You came back wearing some cream colored sliders and your sexiest La Perla lingerie.  I am going to talk to you, to tease you with my mouth, my pussy, my breast, and my feet until you will explode without any direct contact with your cock.  It is just a matter of time, if I do it long enough, you will."  Kim was as sensual and as sexy as I have never seen before: a master in the art of seduction and pleasure.  It took her a couple of hours of efforts to make me climax without any touching of my cock." That was easier than I had anticipated."  For the next few weeks, she just focused on conditioning me with her voice, feet, and scents. One night she managed to make me cum only with the suggestion of her voice while we were on the phone.  The next day, we had a very sobering conversation" You realize by now that I am the only one who can give any kind of sexual pleasure.  Look at you, you already so hard just because of my voice. I will be happy to provide you with sexual relief upon my discretion, if you agree to become my slave and servant, if you don', we are done."  I was furious and started complaining and yelling at her.  She just stood up; she looked down at me with a very stern look on her face "Shut up! I will leave now so you can simmer and decide what you want to do.  You have one chance when I come back, don't blow it." That said you asked for your survival kit back and left.  I was devastated emotionally and crushed.  I thought that she loved me and genuinely cared for me; I was very hurt and upset.  I wanted to get back at her.  After a few days still extremely mad and hurt, I started missing Kim tremendously; I was in emotional and physical pain. After about two weeks, a friend of Kim called to invite me to a dinner party.  It was Kim's idea, she didn't want me to get too depressed and lonely, she explained.  I wasn’t in the mood but I accepted anyhow.  There were about twenty people; I didn't know many of them.  For whatever reason, a very attractive, sophisticated, and charming woman started talking to me.  She was the type of woman I used to fall for.  We spent the entire evening talking, before leaving she gave me her phone number and told me that she would like to see me again.  I debated for a couple of days whether to call her or not.  I wanted to get back at Kim but, at the same time, I was afraid that if Kim would find out she would be very upset and leave me.  I struggled but since, I hadn't heard from Kim in over three weeks, I called Janice."  So nice to hear from you, I thought that you would never call, I was sad." We agreed to meet for dinner and I took her to my favorite restaurant, very romantic. We had wonderful conversations and felt a natural connection.  As we were leaving the restaurant, she asked me if I wanted to spend some more time at her place.  I couldn't believe it. I eagerly accepted.  Once at her place, she wasted no time, she started kissing me passionately, she smelled deliciously and she seemed to be an expert in the sensual arts. To my horror, no matter what she tried, I couldn't get an erection.  Matter of factly she said “it seems that you cannot get an erection"  "you are not mad?" "No not really."  Before I could say anything else, she started making a phone call “Kim? Hi, are you enjoying your vacation?" Kim wants to talk to you; I will put her on a speaker phone. “Hello my dear, you may want to understand what is going on. I just did you a favor. Janice is a very good friend of mine and one of the most sought after courtesans in the USA, if she couldn't cause you to have an erection, nobody else." "Kim, I cannot believe my own eyes, he has a huge erection." "Janice watches this." Kim started telling me to visualize her feet, how her toes would be teasing my cock, her pussy just millimeters from my lips, in no time I had an orgasm without touching myself. Janice couldn't believe her own eyes." what the fuck Kim, I have never seen anything like this, you need to teach me how to do it."  " I will be back next Sunday, call me at 5 pm, so that we can discuss our new arrangement." and with that she hung up. “I don't know what she did to you, but you are totally fucked. Either you will have no sexual gratification for the rest of your life or you will have to be at Kim's back and call.  I don't know which is worse."  What do you mean?" “You will find out. Good night."