I was naked kneeling up. She was standing in front of me; she was wearing a pair of Christian Loubutin Mary Jane slides with black mesh, strap across instep, open toe, and 4 1/4" covered heel, a very short leather mini skirt, no panties, a leather  corset with an incorporated demi cup bra, exposing her nipples and spectacular breast, very light make up, and her hair in a ponytail.  Her name is Victoria, she is Chinese, she has unusually long legs, long fingers with long nail beds painted in a dark chocolate brown, her feet are slender size 7, with a beautiful arch, and perfectly manicured toe nail, also in dark chocolate brow. I am staring at her  pussy with swollen labia glistening with drops of wetness.  She is very unhappy with me, why?

It all started  three years earlier, when we met, she was a very exclusive professional dominatrix.  From our first phone conversation, we felt immediately connected, we talked for about 30 minutes while working out the details of our first session.  Playing together was very inspiring and I felt an immediate and powerful  attraction.  We hardly talk during the session, but our body language and look in our eyes gave an indication of our instant chemistry.  When the session was over, I asked her  if she wanted to have dinner with me.  She eagerly accepted.  The next hours together flew by.  We could talk about anything and everything.  We had so many fetishes and common interests: architecture, art, shoes, food, fashion, social and political issues.  We played at least twice a week for the next few months.  There was an unusual evolution:  during the first month, the sessions were very intense and extreme but, as the  time went by, they started becoming lighter and more sensual.  During one of the sessions, she kissed me passionately.  Once we became lovers, she didn't to dominate me anymore.  We were madly in love with each other, unfortunately I was very married, very devoted to  my children and with no intention of ever divorcing.  She knew this from the beginning.  We stole every moment we could to consummate our  love.  After a few months of bliss, Victoria started becoming unhappy with the fact that I was married and that I would not leave my wife for her. At the same time, she wasn't satisfying my fetishistic needs because she had no interest in dominating me anymore.

In spite of our passion, we were both unhappy and unsatisfied.  She became more distant and became less available.  She claimed that she had  a very reach client who out her on a monthly retainer to be available exclusively for him.  It sounded very strange; I had the strong suspicion that in order to feel more balanced in our relationship she had found a lover.   I confronted her and we had several fights.  In the end, I decided to terminate the relationship because I believe that she had a lover and that she was lying to me.  All I wanted was the truth.  I don't know if I would have been able to handle the fact she had a lover but  at least in terms of fairness it made sense.  She would keep in touch with me, emailing me, calling me, denying the existence of a lover, and wanting to reconcile.  Even when I would say that I understood why she might want a lover she denied categorically.   This drama went on for a couple of years.  In the meanwhile, my fetishistic needs were becoming more intense and acute every day.  Playing with other professional Mistresses didn't help.  It was completely unsatisfactory. The first couple of sessions might go reasonably well, but when  we failed to establish a deep psychological connection and their skills showed their limitations, I became more and more unsatisfied.

I was dealing with the fact that my BDSM needs were becoming unbearable and that Victoria would not leave me alone. I emailed Victoria asking if she would consider a weekend of intense and extreme domination.  She immediately replied that she would love it and that she missed sessioning together.  I arranged for her to meet me in NY at the Peninsula Hotel.  When she arrived she had only a suitcase containing vanilla clothes.  I asked her about her equipment and she reassured saying that she had a surprise for me.  We had an amazing dinner at L'Atelier de Bouchon and then retired to our room.  She went to the bathroom and came back wearing some sexy black Chanel open toe stilettos and panties and bra from La Perla black line.  She was to die for.  She told me to lie down on the bed.  She sat next to me and started playing with my nipples- I love nipple play-: squeezing them, pinching them, licking the, and biting them; alternating pleasurable sensations to painful sensations.  My eyes were glazing over.  She started kissing me very passionately and sensually; next thing, I know she wants me to make love to her.  When I refuse, she gets utterly pissed" I can't believe that this is happening to me! Nobody has refused to have sex with me.  What the fuck are you doing?"  I was totally pissed off because she had tricked me into meeting her while she had no intention of dominating me. I needed desperately very severe domination and all I wanted was to be her slave for this weekend and told her so.  We had a horrible fight, I confronted her again about her having a lover but she vehemently denied it.  I left the room and went for a long walk.  I walked for the next few hours upset at her trickery and lies.  When I finally got back to the room, she was not there.  I noticed that she had used my laptop.  I went on line to look for a professional Mistress, I needed to be dominated very badly, couldn't take it anymore. as I was going through the open tabs, I notice that there was an email account open.  It was her personal account, not the professional one.  My initial reaction was to close it.  Fortunately or unfortunately, I didn't.  My curiosity prevailed over my ethic.  I started reading all her private emails.  I couldn't believe my eyes, she had become a very exclusive courtesan who offered domination services and she had gotten married about 12 months ago.  From the email exchange with her husband, I could tell that she was in love with him and cared for him deeply.  I was devastated by the years of lies, I felt jealousy, bitterness, and pain.

I packed up left immediately the room.  She called me, emailed me, left me messages begging me to talk to her, she had no idea that I knew.  I told her that I needed time alone and that when I was ready, I would get in touch with her.  I finally decided to write her an email explaining what I knew and how I came to know it.  As usual she started lying about her marriage saying that it was a marriage of convenience.  When it finally sunk into her head that I had actually read her emails, she went ballistic and told me that she would get back to me when she decided what to do with me. Initially I was relieved. I hoped that she would go away. I couldn't have been more wrong.  After a weeks, she called me blocking her calling ID, when I picked up she said" Hi, this is Victoria, I am glad that you picked the phone"  Her voice sounded dark and ominous. " I have been thinking what to do about us.  We seem to be broken as lovers but you expressed the desire to be my slave before you read my personal emails. I want you to meet me at my studio"  she continued.  When I told her that I thought that she was out of her fucking mind she told me that if I wouldn't she would send a package to my wife containing copies of our emails and some pictures.  I almost dropped dead. " I will send you an email with instructions" and then she hang up.  She waited two weeks before sending me the email.   Two weeks of agony.  The email finally arrived" Carlos, I have been thinking about you and what kind of relationship we can have... because I want a relationship with you; not exactly what you may want but...let me know when you can meet me at my studio. Ideally, when you don't have to be home for the 24 hours.  XXOO."

Once we agreed on a date, she followed with another email "Carlos, I am sure that you want to know what I have in mind.  I want to satisfy your deep need for submission.  When I open the door to let you in, I want you to  walk to the  main room, get naked, assume your position on all fours, and wait for me."  I was excited and nervous at the same time.  Nervous because of the blackmail threat, excited because she might just want to play with me.  After an eternity, I heard the clicking sound of her heels approaching, she stopped next to me, she told me to kneel up and look at her....and here I am.  I am looking at her, she looks devastatingly beautiful.

She tells me to lie down on the bondage table.  Once I do, she proceeds to completely immobilize me using a combination of leather straps and rope.  Then she applies some tweezers clamps on my nipples and start touching me  very sensually teasing me with her hands, feet, pussies, breast, and ass.  She would insert a couple of fingers in her pussy, take them out glistening with her wetness and insert them in my mouth whispering to me" Isn't my pussy so sweet? Haven't you missed it?" Then she sat down on my chest with her pussies dripping with wetness  just a couple of inches from my face, I could smell it and started slapping me quite harshly.  When she noticed the glazed look in my eyes, sigh that I was completely in subspace, she started whispering:"  The good news is that I am over your, the bad is that I am over you; however I still  have an excellent use for you that may work for both of us.  I want you to become my real slave, not on a professional basis; you will still pay a monthly tribute, a reasonable amount, but you will be mine.  I promise you and I will prove to you without any  reasonable doubt that I will never lie to you  again."  I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I was so intoxicated, in subspace, and needy of domination that I immediately told her that I would love to do that."  I saw a devious smile appear on Victoria's face.  " Since I don't want any misunderstanding and I want this to be fair, I have a prepared an agreement for you and I  to sign.  I am going to read it to you: basically it says that our agreement has an initial term of 30 days from today, that you will make yourself available to me for 24 consecutive hours each week. After the 30 day period, we can extend the same agreement by additional 30 day terms if we mutually agree. I promise that as long as you fulfill your obligations, I will not contact your wife. I also promise that I will never expose you in public, do anything to damage your professional and social life, cause you any permanent physical damage, and make do anything illegal.  Your additional responsibilities are to be my slave , my servant, and to obey me.  If you are not willing to perform something, I will force such activity upon you.  As a slave, you have no  rights and no limits others than the mentioned above.  I, Victoria promise you that I will never lie to you again and if I do, you will have the right to terminate this agreement at any time."

Still not being able  to think rationally because of Victoria's treatment and relieved that in a month time my wife would never find out, I eagerly agreed.  The smile that appeared on Victoria's face was very unsettling. She untied me, gave me some water and when I was alert, she let me review the agreement..  It said exactly what she had summarized to me.  I eagerly signed it.  After Victoria signed it, she gave me a copy, which I put in my briefcase." Carlos the only reason I can treat you as a slave is because I don't love you anymore. I lied to you because I loved you so much and wanted you so desperately. In addition I suffered so much because of your callousness and lack of consideration. You know that I am a very vindictive and cruel person." as she finished her sentence I became pale.  " Now, on all fours and wait for me!"  She came back wearing jeans, a t-shirt, and Puma shoes.  " You will never see me naked again, the outfit, and my behavior had only the objective to convince you to sign the agreement; now that you have, you will learn the true meaning of being a slave."  She took an electrified dildo, lubed it up and inserted in my ass, it was size medium, I felt pretty full.  Then she instructed me to lie on the bondage table again  and proceeded again to immobilize me completely.  She took some wireless earplugs and inserted them  into my ears. Then she took a Velcro strap, she fastened it snugly around my head and over my years to make sure  that the ear plugs would not fall out. She told to open my mouth, once I did she inserted her used panties infused with her piss, and used some tape to seal my mouth.  She took an used bra and strapped on my nose. She applied tweezer clamps on my nipples again.  I heard her voice through the ear plugs, mum if you can year  me, once I mummed she said don' worry we are almost done.  She attached the electrified dildo to an Eros TeK device and raised the intensity until it was quite painful. She continued "I promised that I will never lie to you, I will proceed to prove it to you right now.  The ear plugs are connected to a cell phone, which I just called from my cell phone, I am going to leave it connected to my cell phone so that you can hear everything that I am going to do and to say while you are here in bondage and surrounded by my aromas...oh one more thing.."  You come back and you attach to a bar directly over my eyes some pictures..as I focus, I see pictures of you naked making love with another man.  "this is my husband which I love very much....I am going to meet him in a few minutes and to be ravaged by him..you will have the privilege of listening to our love making and my ravaging...I hope that  the connection will be very clear.  I don't want you to miss anything... you see no more lies!! enjoy it!"

As she leaves the room, I start crying realizing that   I am still madly in love with her and of the pain, degradation,  and humiliation that Victoria will inflict upon me during the next 30 days...

To be continued

"How is my slave doing?  I hope that you can hear me clearly, I want to make sure  that you hear everything..do you remember how I moan and scream when I climax?..I am sure that you remember that I am multi orgasmic..by the way, I will bring you back a present..don't worry..I am thinking of you.  Ohh Steve I have missed you so much...I never thought that I could love somebody so much...I can't wait to be fucked in the ass and to suck your magnificent cock..I adore you so much...please take me..fuck me..ravage me..."  I hear her moans and screams that I know so well..she is loud..I hear her having one, two, three, four ..five six orgasm...then silence...water running.."slave I am taking my usual after sex bath.. I will spend the night with my husband, I love waking up with him, sucking his cock, getting fucked, coming a couple of times..having  breakfast in our love nest..then I will come over and take care of you for about 8 more hours...ah one more thing..if you need to relieve yourself you can do it in the diaper that you are wearing..it is going to messy but you will get used to it ..have a good night"...then silence again ..they have  fallen asleep..  silence..I am crying..I am nauseous from the emotional pain and humiliation. I try to hold it for as long as I can but then I need to relieve myself, it smells horrible.. and feels very messy..I doze on and off..silence, stench and just silence, misery, and suffering....Ironically I am starting to look  forward to when Victoria, my cruel Mistress, will arrive...Finally, I hear footsteps. Victoria removes the earplugs..."Carlos..my dear slave...oh  it smells so bad in here...let me take care of this foul smell. " She removes the diaper that is full of shit and piss, then uses some wipes to clean me up." Now it is better, the foul smell is gone.  Your eyes are so red..it looks like you have been crying.  I was hoping that you would.. you see no more lies as promised .I wanted to give you the full effect..our pictures while  making love..the taste of my piss, the smell of my breast, our voices..well especially mine moaning and screaming..maybe you would have preferred my lies..well too late now ..I am reformed and I will never lie to you again.  I am going to remove the panties but there is a new rule for you, you cannot talk unless I allow you to"..my jaw is hurting..Victoria looks so beautiful and completely rested..she is wearing  a gym outfit."I have a present  for you it is my husband's cum mixed with my juices and some water to make sure that it wouldn't dry up...open your mouth and swallow"   when I refuse Victoria says"  This is going to be more fun than I anticipated"  she takes a cattle prod and she applies it to my genitals for what seems like an eternity, unfazed by my screams,  she removes it to ask me to open my mouth..I comply promptly..she smiles.." very good..now you have the full effect..you even know how he tastes.  Carlos this was just an appetizer..you refused to make love to me, you read my private emails, and you scorned me.  I can call your wife and tell her everything and it  is over or we can continue.  If you don't want me to call  your wife, you have to say..Mistress Victoria..I want to be your slave..could you please train me? "  I repeated the sentence without hesitation" excellent, I was hoping that you would..before when we played, I was in love with you and had professional boundaries..now I am scorned and you are my personal slave.. I am sure that you will regret your final choice .  We have about 8 more hours together.  Isn't  it great?"  

She gave some water to drink.  " when we are together, you will not be allowed to eat, I will give you water to hydrate you but no food, I want to keep you weak. It will  make it more difficult to endure the suffering. On Sundays, I always do boxing with my trainer.. because of you I can't get my fix..but..I have an idea" she unties me from the bondage table and allows me to stretch for about 30 minutes.  When my joints have recovered, she ties my hands to an overhead bar, raises them above my head until my arms are fully extended, she secures my ankles to a spreader bar, and then ties the bar a eye bolt in the floor. I am completely immobilized, exposed, and vulnerable.  "I probably never told you but I looove beatdowns." She comes back wearing combat sports style cage gloves, a sports bra, spandex shorts , and no shoes  She smiles, she  circles me... " Don't worry I will not hit you in the face." The blows start raining down on my bodies, my ribs, my stomach, my belly, my back, my balls.  She punches me, she kick me, she knees me..she alternates flurries of punches to kicking my balls and kneeing my belly and balls.  She just takes  breaks to drink some water and to spit on my face then she resumes. After about an hour she is exhausted.  I am beaten to pulp..bruised..and in severe pain.  She leaves me there hanging while she takes a shower.  When she comes back refreshed, she removes my restrains and tells me to crawl into the puppy dog cage.  Once in, she locks the door.  " Carlos, there a few more rules that you need to follow: you will be naked at all times; you will not be allowed on any furniture; you will live on the floor; you will crawl only in my presence; your eyes will always be cast down.  Here is a pitcher of my piss, it is quite dark and bitter because I didn't hydrate enough.  I want you to drink it all by the time I come back.  I used to drink so much water before feeding you my golden nectar because I wanted to make sure that its flavor would be as mild as possible; now you are going to drink whatever comes out."  She left without saying anything else.  I was terrified that she would come back before I finished the contents of the pitcher.  It tasted horrible, very strong, but I had no hesitation, I finished the piss very quickly.  The last thing that I wanted to do was displease her or upset her.  I deplored my stupidity, how could I have scorned her and asked her just to be her slave? I had no idea of what it really meant and now I was paying the price for my stupidity.  My body was sore all over and I was terrified just at the thought of what else she might do to me.  She left there until late in the afternoon.  " I hope that you had time to reflect about what means to be my slave, I personally do hope that you will want to renew our agreement when it expires because I am loving it!  I want you think at the night at the Peninsula when I wanted to make love to you, suck your cock, and be ravaged by you..but you decided to turn me down because you wanted to be my slave.  I really hope that you are happy with your choice.  Unfortunately, the 24 hours are up. You can take a shower and leave whenever you are ready.  remember to email me when you will be available again for 24 hours, I have big plans for you..slave."

A soon as I manage to  rearrange my schedule so that I can available to Victoria, I email her letting her know that I would be available the coming Saturday for 24 hours: my family will be out of town visiting my in-laws.  She replies very promptly: " Saturday will work well, she would like to meet me at 10 am at her studio...since your family is not arpound, I may even spend more tim with you..24 hours are not enough..I need more time with you." My heart sunk, I knew better not to argue, I just  resigned to my destiny. Throughout the week Victoria either left me messages on my voice mail or sent me emails describing what she was doing while she wasn't with me.."I have just been fucked in the ass by my husband..I had a session with my favorite client...it was very sensual and severe at the same time...pussy worship combined with NT and heavy flogging..he has an amazing tongue..I came at least three times..I sucked my husband cock and swallowed..so much cum..sorry that I couldn't save it for you..I like swallowing cum too much..saw my favorite client again..today it was just very sensual focused on body worship..you have no idea how good his tongue is. I came so hard that my calves cramped..I was required to reply to each email thanking for the updates and for being so honest with me.  I was devastated and in constant agony. I ring the bell, she opens the door ands he lets me in.  She is wearing very comfortable clothes, nothing sexy.  As soon inside,once I was naked, I crawled behind her." Very well slave, I see that so far you are following the rules.   Lie on your back, close your eyes and open your mouth."  I complied immediately.  Next she puts a funnel in my mouth and start pissing in it,  I use my tongue to regulate the flow and manage to drink everything without chocking. " That was very good, slave.  I remember that you were very unsympathetic when I had my period, you could never understand what he big thing was."  She told to position my self on all four, she inserted a nozzle and warm water started invading my guts.  She regulated the flow to make that I took two full quarts. Once finished, she inserted an inflatable butt plug, filled it with air until the water was completely sealed inside me.  I asked permission to talk she told to go ahead"I love you so much..I beg you..I cannot take your updates any more..I am in so much pain and emotional mess."  A radiant smile appeared on her face"  I had no idea that you were still madly in love with me...this is going to be so much  more fun than I expected..I promise that I will give you more detailed and frequent updates..I always keep my word..no more lies!"  I lost all hope and resigned myself to a few eeks in hell. " This is plan for today:  I need to make some  phone and some administrative work, while I am busy I want you at my feet..I like t walk around in my bare feet..they are so sexy and beautiful..but I thought that you may enjoy it too much..so I am wearing some athletic socks..where was I?  Ah..I hope that the cramping will be very painful..I am going gag you because I need quiet..but i will enjoy seeing contorting in pain on the floor."  She her panties drenched in piss in my  mouth...and went about doing her business..from time to time she would kick me in the belly look at my agony and then continue working.  I was pale, sweating, nauseous, in constant agony in fetal position on the floor. After a couple of hours  " Follow me to the bathroom..I am going to deflated the but ..make sure you expel everything..once you are done clean up yourself and meet me in My bedroom."   I relieved myself , it as like going to heaven..the cramping gone..I took a long hot shower..and enjoyed the moment of peace for as long as I could.  Then I crawled to Victoria's room resigned to my life of degradation, agony, and suffering.  "You must be thirsty..come here.  I have saved our cums.from this week just for you...your fluid  diet will be cum diluted with water and piss...You may have noticed that I have become suck a sick puppy...You have been a big influence...drink up!  For the next few hours I am going to make you into my bitch..You will learn how to suck dildos..not to gag..then I will fuck you in the ass open you until you can take my 10" dildo...and then next week I will fist you..You lucky boy..I will be inside you ..isn't that special?"

She found a dildo about 8' long  that  fit into my mouth nicely, she inserted into her strap on harness, she told me to kneel up and open my mouth, she told to start licking the shaft, then the head..then just the head into my mouth while I massaged it with my tongue"  You remember how good my blow jobs were?  You know that I will teach you very well".  Then she told me open my mouth and wrap my lips around the shaft.  Once I did, she grabbed the back of my head and she fucking my mouth hard. She would alternate fucking my mouth to removing the dildo and bitch slapping my face..when she got tired of standing, she lied on her beck in her bed she told to crawl over and position myself facing her dildo" Now I am going to teach how to overcome the gag reflex..if I can do it..you can do it!....  when you feel the cock hitting the back of your throat/mouth  try to relax the muscle>"  She grabbed my head and she started pushing it down on her dildo..gently at first but with each stroke she would deeper until I started gaging" relax the muscle!"  she would push until I would start throwing up, then she would take out the dildo, berate me for the failure, slap my face and start over again."I am not going to leave until you are properly trained!"  Finally by mid afternoon I managed not to gag"  I am so proud of your progress..you leant..see it wasn't so bad.  The timing is very good too..I have a couple hours to start stretching your ass>"  Describe as stretching.........................."unfortunately, I need to leave, I am meeting my husband for a romantic dinner and then a night of love making..so delicious..but you know that..you know that I am an incredible lover..too bad that you won't enjoy any more.  I was thinking..how can I top what i did to you last week? and then it came to me>"  She inserted the 10 inch dildo all the way up my ass..I felt like exploding, then she tied me to the bondage bed until I was completely immobilize, she inserted a gag with a hole in my mouth,  then a catheter in my urethra, she connected the catheter with tube to the hole in my mouth gaga."  I call thus full cycle, I want to make that you will be hydrated tonight, so you will drink your own piss.  She inserted again the ear plugs and called the cell phone..I thought  that she was done"  Carlos, I think that you need something more..more memorable...I gave it a lot of thought and then it came to me..it is very personal and I hope that you will appreciate it.  I will be back." After a few minutes she comes back just wearing her top and panties" I just gave myself an enema"  She put a blindfold over my eyes"  As I promised you will never see me naked again." then she put some pads underneath my body and all around the bondage table, then she sat squat on my chest and she defecated  all over my chest.  when she was done , she put on some latex gloves and spread her shit all over my chest and face. "Now you are ready for the night.  I will see you tomorrow morning.  I hope that will enjoy my live dinner and love making...Good night Carlos!"..and she left.

It was the most miserable night of my life:  my ass so full, drinking from time to time my own piss, covered in excrements, and surrounded by foul smell.  In addition, I was forced to listen to Victoria and her husband conversation over dinner, their love making , and Victoria's moans and pleasure screams.  " I hope that you enjoyed  our love making Carlos..I will see you  tomorrow morning..Good night..actually I believe that you might be quite miserable..but that is what happens to a slave and you prefer to be my slave rather than my lover.. I am giving you what you wanted..I hope that you are enjoying it..good night."  I was terrified and awed  by such cruelty..I could cry and contemplate my misery.  Finally the morning came.  Victoria walked in, put on some latex gloves, removed the huge dildo, untied me and instructed to throw in the garbage all the ropes and pads and to clean myself  in the bathtub/shower.  Once done, I was instructed to crawl to the basement and wait for her.  It was cold and damp,  Victoria stopped next to me and instructed to look at her.  She was wearing high heel sandals, displaying her sexy feet, a very short skirt highlighting he perfect and beautiful legs, a a white tight top, with no bra, I could see the shape of the nipples pressed against the fabric, very little make up, some dark lipstick to highlight her  lips and her back ina pony tail." I want you to admire my beauty and desire me knowing that you will never be bale to touch me again and have me again.  Enjoy the view." she walked around me..getting closer..I could smell her."  That is enough for today."  She put a hood over my head, mad me stand up, tied my arms at the overhead bar and left.  " Did you miss me?  It is time for your beating. Last time I enjoyed my work out but I think that  it wasn't painful enough for you. I have a  a sjambok just for you, I have never used on my slaves or clients because it was too painful..but You have no choice Carlos..I was thinking of gagging but actually I think that I am going to enjoy your screams."  She stepped back and hit me hard..no warm up of course.I didn't want to give her the satisfaction of crying and screaming..but after a few strokes, I couldn't hold back the tears and the screams..Ahhhh..aaahhhh..aaghhh..aaahhh..aghh..aahhh..aaahhhhh  aghhhh...I was crying and screaming uncontrollably.  When she finally stopped I was covered  with dark red and purple welts..my back..my stomach..my ass.. my thighs..."Unfortunately the 24 hours are up...you see I never lie and always keep my word.  Check your email often and let me know when you can spend another consecutive 24 hours with me. I am looking forward..Now I am going to untie you and leave..I have to meet my husband..let yourself out and lock the door behind you."  and she left.