Knowing

The experiences always come at night, uncontrollably, and with no warning. I can't resist, can't stop myself, can't protect myself..   I feel helpless, powerless, slightly confused, muffled.. I feel restricted, exposed, defenseless.. I'm not cold, I'm slightly warm, I might be under water but I have no trouble breathing, I can't see anything clearly, just shadows, I can't hear anything at all....    I feel a strong presence, it's demanding that I give myself to it, that I release my fears and accept it, and I'm unsure, I don't know who or what it is, it's very insistent.. I sense pressure, constriction around my stomach and throat, I'm scared now, my breathing is shallower, I can't see or hear anything, I just feel the being, I feel its will..  I begin to struggle now, not violently because I don't have the ability, it's as if I've been drugged, all my reactions are slow and feeble, I am losing my strength, I am fading..  I feel renewed insistence from the entity, as if it can sense my weakening, it desires me, it desires to rule me, dominate me, command me, and I can't fight it, I don't know why, I can't, I can't, it has me, there's no escape from it, no respite from it, it has me, I belong to it, I am captured, it's defeated me, I have surrendered.... I have surrendered.... ------------------   I feel its pleasure at my submission, I feel it exploring me, probing my mind deeply, seeing all of me, the real complete me, it knows what I am, what I want, what I desire the most, desires I don't know I have, and yet I sense feelings coming to the surface, floating up from the dark depths of my unconscious, feelings that have been hidden, obscured for so long, yet feelings that I really always knew existed within me...   It can detect this change in me, it knows my mind and knows what I am thinking, what I am realizing, what I am beginning to understand about myself.. I relax in its control, I lower my barriers totally, I enjoy the feeling of its dominance, I accept its power over me, and mentally I form a thank you to it for showing me myself, for allowing me to know myself without shame, for enabling me to be myself.....  I feel a colossal wave of euphoria building inside me, as if a huge dam has broken and the full power of my desire has been released... I am overwhelmed with my feelings, I am swept along on a tide of sexual and mental ecstasy, and I know it's only the beginning..  I am being probed, but I'm not sure if it's mentally or physically, everything is blurred, I am being probed, it is opening me, it is exploring me, and I relish the sensations, I feel it knowing my insides, I feel wonderfully open and exposed to it, it can see all of me, I am displayed for it and it approves, and I am exhilarated....   I want to show it my obedience, I want to show it that I belong to it now, that I am owned by it, that I am its slave, and it can hear my thoughts.. it knows I want to show my devotion and submission and this pleases it, so it communicates with me, and tells me it's going to hurt me..  I am thrilled at the thought of being hurt by it, of offering no resistance, of wanting to be hurt.. my heart beats faster, and I am very wet.. I imagine what it might do to me, what I could stand, and then I think what if it pushes me beyond, and I secretly want to be pushed, to be subjected to unspeakable acts, to be taken to another place where I am nothing but thrashed, abused, willing flesh, and it knows this, and is pleased by my craving to be ruined.... --------------------   I sense something approaching me, and I open my legs, I know what is going to happen, I feel the rows of small sharp teeth brushing up my inside thighs as they slowly move up to my pussy, and I am so so wet, waiting for them to bite me, bite into my soft, open, sensitive pussy lips, the jaws clamping down and pulling hard, stretching me and hurting me deliciously...  I feel my cunt lips between the jaws, the teeth biting into my flesh, and it's wonderful, it's amazing, the pressure increases and the teeth bite deeper, I judder and shake as I accept the hurt, accept the damage, welcome the pain into my being, give myself to the pain, let the pain take over, let the entity have my soul, and the jaws pull on my lips, hard, stretching them down, making them longer, and it feels so right, I know it's what I've needed for so long, immense pain in my willing pussy, I pull back away from the jaws to increase the pull and make it hurt more...  It knows the pleasure I am feeling, it knows how much I like it, it knows I want more, it knows how much I want it... I beg for more....    The teeth pull harder and the pain is blinding, I begin to jerk on the jaws to create short stabs of pain, and I'm pushing my belly forward and my breasts up, offering them to it, offering them up for abuse and torture, needing it all over me..   I am rewarded with teeth clamping hard down on each tit, almost chewing my soft meat, and jaws biting at my stomach.. it feels like I'm being eaten alive, it's heavenly, my body is singing in pure sexual bliss, I feel at one with everything, I know myself, it knows me, I am.......   I feel warm around my throat, and then there is a gentle squeezing in a intensely erotic way, as if I am being shown my helplessness, and it only makes me more wet, and I love the feeling of having my life completely taken out of my hands, of being dominated totally, of having no choice, no thought, no escape.. I want it to squeeze harder, and it hears me.. the pressure is strong and I feel myself becoming light-headed, the euphoria is surging through me now..    And then as the grip around my throat tightens, I feel pressure on my belly, around my waist, like a corset, and it's amazing to experience the crush as well as the teeth biting ever deeper into my open wet pussy...        It knows my ecstasy, we are one, dominant and submissive, master and slave, and I am ready for anything, I honestly desire anything, I give my myself to it wholly, to do with as it pleases, to finish me if it wants, I want it to know that it can, that I am nothing anymore, that it has helped me achieve this state of nirvana, of total servitude and slavery, total submission........  -------------------------          I feel the jaws on my cunt lips pull it open.. it's delicious as I'm stretched open, pulled apart, forced to display.. I am ready for anything, I am so aroused.. Something enters me forcefully, straight in to my wet pussy, filling me, and then it begins to pump me, to fuck me like a dog, like I'm not even there, just a piece of meat, a wild animal, a dirty, trashy fuck-slut that needs to be hurt over and over again....  I am pummeled by it, mercilessly pounded deeply, it's using me totally, selfishly, having me carelessly, and it's the most wonderful experience of my life, the jaws clamp tighter than ever on my soft willing body, hurting me more than I could ever have imagined, taking me to a place of total being, colors flooding my senses, ecstasy throughout my body and mind..   I know now how this will end, and I know it's perfection, it's the only way, and I want it, I WANT IT !!! My pussy is stretched wide, accepting the monster inside me as it rams into me, and biting pain is all over me, everywhere, I feel bright sizzling electricity all through me, I know it's going to happen, it knows that I want it, and it is pleased..   The grip on my throat intensifies slowly but surely, and my body relaxes, accepting my fate, I feel so alive, I am fucked harder, it's fucking me, fucking me, I am close now, I am really close, I feel total peace, total excitement, total pleasure, I have given myself completely, I have been tortured and penetrated as I have desired for so long, and now I am going to be finished, the final glory for my submissive body and mind....   It's in me, so intense, hurting my pussy, my throat is nearly gone, my eyes are bulging but I see nothing, and I teeter on the edge, I see the chasm before me, I want it so much, I need it, I've always needed it, it has to be now, it's so right, I feel fire rip up through my cunt into my belly and chest, surging up to my neck, as the pressure on my throat finally crushes it, I am jumping into the unknown..... it is the bliss I have dreamt of..........................................