Stephanie's New Life

Part 6 June

Dear Reader,
Here is yet another month of the life of Stephanie.  I really would like to
apologize for the delay in getting them all together.  I was just very busy and,
frankly, this relationship has drained me emotionally.
And I would like to thank every one of you who has
written to express your feelings about what has been happening to everyone
involved.
These letters are all still very real, as are the people in them.  As I did in
the May letters, I will re-introduce you to all the players involved.

Stephanie - Angel - The primary submissive
Josephine - The dominant Mistress and head of household
Hannah - 21-year-old co-worker of Stephanie and lover of Josephine
Beatrice - Angel's dominant boss at work
Allison - Josephine's 17-year-old daughter and budding young lesbian
Donna - Hannah's sister, also referred to as "Goddess" by Angel
Patricia - Close associate of Miss Beatrice in the lingerie business
Ronnie - teenaged friend of Allison
Trisha, Penny, Jane - Co-workers of Stephanie

And without any further ado, here is all the correspondence from June of this
year.

June 4

Mistress Sasha

I am so very sorry that I have not written to you and i beg you to forgive me.
It's just that so much has been happening and now that I am working for Miss
Patricia and Miss Beatrice I am not stationary very much and I don't always have
access to a pc where i am.  I am sorry Mistress, truly. 
I have missed writing to you.  Really I have.  I'm not allowed to have opinions
most of the time here and sometimes it's just nice to sort of talk about things
and that's how it feels when I write to you.

Please forgive me.  Please.  I have been punished. Mistress told me to tell you
how, but it wasn't just a normal punishment Mistress.  First, I was hung from
the hooks, upside down with my shoulders on the floor and Mistress used the cane
on my cunt and then over my anus and the line between my bottom cheeks. She only
ever canes me there so that it doesn't show.  Mistress, please believe me, she
truly was severe with me and she made my clitoris and lips so sore, I still
can't even touch them.
They are inflamed.  Mistress, the other punishment was later. She talked to me
when Miss Hannah and Miss had gone to bed.  I was still strung up, and she
pulled at my nipples and told me she had been saving something for me, and she
called Goddess and she came over really late.  Mistress left me with Miss Donna,
and I was left hanging, and Miss Donna leant down and kissed my cheek and told
me that she has a special present for me, and she took off her jeans and her
panties, and well she peed into me and then she told me that she was going to
shit into my mouth, and she looked at me but I couldn't say anything.  I love
her, you know I do, but that was something I just hadn't considered, and I
didn't want, not really. I was afraid that she might have had me do it before,
ages ago, but she always just let me put them into the toilet (you know she
poo's into my hands, don't you Mistress?) she just looked at me and smiled and
said it wont be long and she touched me and then she turned and crouched with
her bottom over my face and she took a long time, but then she did it Mistress
and she told me to eat it, and I did and I felt so dirty Mistress.  You see, I
was punished. In every way. She kissed my thigh and told me I was wonderful and
she took a paper bag off the table and lifted my head and put it over my head
and she went.

It took me ages, but I must have slept.  My legs really hurt, and my arms, they
were so stiff, and when they got up I head them, and sometimes one of them
touched my cunt and bottom and it hurt so, and later Mistress took the bag off
my head and showed it to me. It said "Do not touch. Toilet", and she asked me if
I had enjoyed myself last night and she laughed at me.

She let me down and put my clothes by the door and told me to wash my filthy
mouth then get out.
You will know Mistress, but my legs hurt from walking at first. They just ached
so, as if I had been running or something, and my cunt was sore as I moved. 
Honestly Mistress, I have been punished for being so remiss and not writing to
you.  Please forgive me.

I have Miss Beatrice's permission to write this.  Mistress gave me a note for
her, but I do have to meet someone else at 10:30 so I should close this just for
now, and she said that I will have to write more later when I get back.

I am sorry Mistress Sasha.  You know that don't you?  Please.

sub 

And i would like to offer you a kiss but i know Mistress said you were very
unhappy with me--
Mistress

My appointment is not coming today after all.  Miss Beatrice had a call from
Miss Patricia.

So I can write more to you ...  maybe make you like me again.?

I am nearly officially Sub Lesbienne. Mistress had a letter on Saturday to say
that as at 18 June the Deed would be 'read' (or something like that).  Last week
I had to go to the Police Station to bear witness to the application.  They sent
a form and I just had to present it and 2 passport photographs. I was so scared,
of what they might do or say.  The police were ok, but one laughed at me, at my
new name and said I must be kidding, but it was ok really. Miss Hannah went with
me, she was wonderful.

So I am soon not going to be Stephanie at all.  No Stephanie and no
Xxxxxxx, nothing.  Mistress says that my new name isn't a name at all, it's just
a description of what I am. She teased me when she took me to bed at the
weekend, about it.  Like 'What does it feel like to be a nobody, just a thing'
and she wants me to go to the library to get a card with my description to see
if they might want something.

I have been taken to the club a few times too, twice by Miss Donnas and once
with Miss Hannah.  Mandy really likes me, and she always fondles me and tells me
that i have a nice body to play with.
Miss Donnas and Miss Hannah both love the club, and Miss Hannah almost made love
to me while we danced.  She is really open about being sexual with me, not like
Miss Donnabie.  You know, about Miss Donnas, and what she did to me last night. 
I really couldn't believe that she would, not after this time.  I thought it was
just a threat, like when Mistress says she is going to drop me off naked
somewhere, but she actually did it. 
It's just a disgusting thought and I'm really afraid that she might just do that
now, that Mistress might have told her to.  And I don't want it, not really. But
I can't say that, and I don't want you to say that either Mistress please. 
Please don't say anything about that.  Please.

Can I tell you about something a bit nicer ... I was picked up by Miss Turner
again yesterday, to go through the arrangements for her party, its tomorrow. She
took me to her house and stripped me and had me
It's really warm here lately and Mistress has allowed me to wear a sarong. It
isn't see through but I wear it as a dress just over my tits and most of one
side is exposed most of the time because the over flap is only about 3 inches. 
It can be worn as a skirt (its got Velcro fastenings) but Mistress has had it as
a dress on me.  Anyway that's what I had on.  And as soon as she closed her
front door she pulled at it and threw it away and fondled me, and she pulled me
to her and she put her fingers into my bottom.  Later, we sat on the sofa, and
she had me pull her panties and tights off and I caressed her thighs and kissed
her pussy until she came for me, twice.
She told me that she was having the party in this room, and that there would be
8 of them, and I was to use the study to change in, and that Patricia had told
her I would wear whatever any of the girls wanted to see. 
All this time she was just cuddling me and stroking me while I played with her
pubes, then, all of a sudden she jumped up and told me to get dressed and she
did, and she said she'd forgotten the girls, and that they'd be home soon.  I
told her I would go, but she asked me if I had to, and I said I didn't, and she
said she promised that she would take me back (that is one of Miss Patricia's
things.  She always says either they take me back to Xxxxxx or she picks me up).

Anyway she told me to stay, that it would be alright, and when the girls were
dropped off they were lovely and said hi to me, and we played, all four of us,
we played games and I had a really nice time.  Every now and then, Miss Turner
fondled me under my sarong when they weren't looking.  It was exciting, to be
like that. With her sneaking touches.  I did keep my sarong together and made
sure the girls didn't see anything.  Once, we were in the kitchen, the door was
closed, and Miss Turner had her finger in my bottom and she was laughing about
it being a handle (well I was laughing too) and her older daughter came in, and
Miss Turner turned and stood right beside me and talked to her with her finger
still in my bottom.  She was there for a good two minutes and she kept giving me
'knowing' glances and squeezed my anus every now and then.

It was fun, a nice change.

The other ones I have been with lately a couple of times are Mrs.
Gxxxxxx and M.  They both like to play water sports with me. And, I know that
they are paying for me.  They are paying Miss Patricia, because I saw M. give
Miss Patricia an envelope and she in turn gave it to me to give to my Mistress,
and she opened it and it was lots of money.  I don't know how much, but there
was a lot.

Both times they have had me one picks me up, then we pick up the other, and go
to a hotel.  It's really nice, and the thing they showed me first was the bath,
a huge round part sunken bath.  It's enormous.  We all play with one another for
a while, but both times, they ended up hugging and fondling each other while one
sat on my face and the other rubbed her pussy on mine and when they came they
both peed on and into me.  In fact, they both pee a lot.  You know, a lot of
times, and they like to show each other when they pee on me, or when I drink
them.  When they are satisfied they just cuddle each other and ignore me, so I
shower myself and just wait for them to want me again. 

They have said that they like me, and they even said that they want to take me
on holiday with them.  I had to tell Miss Patricia and Mistress that the last
time I saw them.

I have two of Miss Patricia's parties this week, Miss Turner and another lady
who I was shown to but I don't know her name.  Miss Patricia didn't have me
strip for her, just had me go in wearing the one piece bathing costume.  She
looked nice, and Miss Patricia said she was going to be at the party too.  Miss
Patricia is expecting some big orders.  I hope she gets them.  She still likes
me to please her too, from time to time.

I can't think of anything else to tell you about Mistress.  If I do, I will
write more later.  Miss Beatrice says I am to be here all day now.

Sub


Mistress

Miss Beatrice had instructed me to write to you about what 'the lovely
Trisha' (that is Miss Beatrice's name for her) just did with me.  Miss Beatrice
returned from lunch and I saw Trisha go in to her, then about 10 minutes later
I got a call from Miss Beatrice to go in too.

They were both sitting on the sofa when I went in and Miss Beatrice told me to
close the door and come to them.  I have a short skirt - one of Miss', and a
vest of Miss Hannah's on.  Miss Beatrice got up and went to sit behind her desk,
and Trisha leant forward and undid my skirt and took it off me then pulled me to
sit next to her.  She turned slightly to face me, and she stroked my leg, from
my knee to my mons, just on the top of my leg, but I was still so excited. 
Trisha was just looking down at my leg as she did it and I opened my legs just a
little as she just ran her hand over my leg.  Neither of them said anything. 
She sat back and pulled my vest up over my head and folded it on the arm of the
sofa behind her, and she put her hand on my right tit and looked at me, and I
must have smiled at her, I'm sure I did, because she smiled at me and squeezed
slightly.  Then Miss Beatrice said something like "Oh I do love to see you two
together like this" and she got up and pulled a chair right in front of us, just
sitting back and watching us, and Trisha looked at me and her and at my body and
fondled my breast as we just sat there and I got more and more aroused.  It went
on for quite a long time, just like that, then Miss Beatrice leant forward and
pulled my legs apart and motioned me to lift my right leg over Trisha's leg and
I looked down and my pussy lips were open, wide open and still a little red. 
Miss Beatrice took Trisha's hand and moved it to the inside of my thigh and
Trisha smiled and said something like "Oh Beatrice" but she was giggling and she
moved her hand over me and just touched her finger between my lips and stroked
me with the length of her finger and I was so sore it was exquisite and so
painful.  She just carried on, and Miss Beatrice just sat back and watched. And
even though it hurt so, I pushed forward, onto her hand, but she moved it and
touched my tit again, just stroking me, then back to my pussy, over and love
like that.  I was in a real state Mistress.  Just so aroused.

Miss Beatrice's phone went and she answered it, and told us to go for the time
being, so I dressed and left with Trisha.  She just went back to her desk, but
she did smile at me.  Sharon gave me a daggers look, but she was on the phone
then, and since then I have come in here, in the downstairs room, so she has not
had chance to talk to me, so I know she will do something to me when I go back
up unless Miss Beatrice calls me in again.

I love being naked for Trisha, Mistress. She plays with me so innocently, just
touches and strokes, and she is so young and she seems to like to just touch me. 
She reminds me a little of Miss (Allison).  She still loves to lick me, and just
touch me and finger.  But she fingers my bottom too, and she does like to use
the strap on me, but only sometimes.  Generally it is all innocent, but so
lovely.

Miss Beatrice has told me in the past, that she wants to watch me being fisted
and she wants Trisha to be the one to do it.  But I really don't think she will. 
I know Sharon would, I haven't told her so of course, because I know she will do
it harshly, but I know she would.  But I love it with Trisha.  You know
something odd.  She never touches me when Miss Beatrice is not there.  Strange,
isn't it?

I hope you write back to me, just to acknowledge that I sent these, because
Mistress might ask me if you replied, and I am a little afraid of another caning
tonight.  I am truly still very sore and bruised there.
And I know that is pathetic of me. She might just slap me with the strap,
perhaps. She might ignore me and that would almost be worst, because she was not
happy with me this morning, and I have nothing really to tell her about today. 
She was expecting me to entertain again, but she (the lady whoever she was)
cancelled the meeting. She won't like that.

I have just sat here for about 20 minutes just wondering about what might
happen, and now Miss Beatrice has just called for me. I have to go
Mistress.

sub
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Mistress,

Thank you so much for replying to me.  Mistress will know you have seen that I
wrote to you and so, I hope, she will be able not to hurt my lips and clitoris
again, not tonight, anyway.

Thank you Mistress

sub


Sub,
It was very nice and interesting to hear what happened in the office.  I am
getting an idea through your letters that Trisha might also be a sub to a minor
extent to Miss Beatrice.  Certainly not to the degree that you are.  Because I
did notice that she does things with you only in Beatrice's presence.  She might
be doing it on her behest or command.  But, then again, she might just get off
on being watched.  Think about it and perk your ears up to notice things along
that line.
Keep the faith.

Sasha

June 5

Mistress

I am sorry I have not written earlier Mistress.  I have been kept busy and I was
sent to the salon to tan again. 

You wrote about Trisha Mistress.  I am certain that she does not do it to be
seen doing ot Mistress.  I think it is because Miss Beatrice (and Miss Patricia
sometimes) tell her too.  It is always the same, that either we both go in
together and Miss Beatrice says "Why don't you take off her top for me Trisha"
and then they goad her into going further, prompting her all the time.  Or,
sometimes, Miss Beatrice calls her in first then me, and Trisha starts with
something as soon as I get in, but she looks to Miss Beatrice for approval when
she has done it. If you know what I mean.

Mistress was more pleased with me last night and she allowed Miss
Hannah to put cream on my cunt lips, as they were still a little too red and
inflamed. I just did the housework last night, and bathed Miss Hannah later.
Mistress sat with me for a while, in the kitchen, and told me that last night I
' thank her for my punishment, and I got on my knees and apologized to her, but
she said she understood as i did seem a little upset at the time, and she
laughed, and she stroked my hair.   At first I was scared that she might cane me
again, but then she was really happy.  Things are like that sometimes. 
Sometimes I am so scared of something and when it happens its not so bad, and
other times you just don't expect anything and its awful and so frightening.

I promise I will listen out for what Miss Beatrice says to Trisha.  I do
remember the previous time we were in together, Miss Beatrice and Trisha sat
together, side by side on the sofa.  I was sitting on a chair right in front of
them, and Miss Beatrice asked/told Trisha to push my legs apart, and then wider
and wider until they were right out to the side, and she asked/told Trisha to
pull my clit hood up so that they could see my clitoris. 
Miss Beatrice claimed she hadn't seen one before, and I'm sure Trisha hadn't. 
Anyway.  It was Miss Beatrice goading her into it, definately.  I don't mind
that she does though.  It's ok.  I like Trisha.

Anyway Mistress.  I have to go for a while.

I will be back later if I can.

Sub

Sasha

sorry about yesterday. we'd been out for a drink and id had too much. silly
bitch eh?

I was feeling bad cause of subs punishment but it wasn't my fault. I was only
the one who told Jo, i didn't hit it after all. i was feeling guilty, stupid eh.
but she was really upset when i got there, but like u said she probably likes it
all anyway.

went round there tonight but its got a show to do so it wasn't there. Jo was
fingering hans tits while i was there, she was topless!!!! Eh? nice sis eh?

anyway. don't worry abotu me Im fine and I have decided that she will have her
little pussy licked when i next see her.

lots of love

Donnas

Friday June 6

Mistress

I went to Mrs. T last night, for the show.  Miss Beatrice sent me in a taxi from
the office and when I got there (I still had my work clothes on) and she let me
in and took me into the den and she was in a sort of panic about the party. She
just babbled about having to get drinks ready and that I would have to help
serve the drinks, and she fussed about with the bag (I knew it was one of Miss
Patricia's bags) and she took things out and moved them about, then she took me
into her lounge and all of the furniture was arranged and she asked me if it
would be alright.  She was really in a state.  I suggested that I could get her
a drink and she said "Yes please".
When I got her a glass of wine - I didn't even ask her what she wanted, she
collapsed in a chair, pulled me down beside her and she cuddled me and kept
asking me if it all looked alright, and I assured that that it was fine, and
that everything was going to be ok. And she cuddled me and she did calm down.  I
stroked her breasts though her clothes and she called me a 'naughty girl', but
she laughed too.  We got the rest of the things ready then someone came to the
door and it was a lady with Ronnie (Mrs T's older daughter).  Mrs T told me
she'd got rid of her other daughter for the night with a sleep over, but that
Ronnie was staying because she didn't want to sleep over.  She asked me if that
was alright, and I told her it was. She worries about everything too much I
think.
Anyway, Mrs. T told Ronnie to keep out of the way tonight and keep quiet, and
after a while she got changed and her friends started to arrive.  I stayed in
the den at first, then Mrs. T called me out to serve drinks, and she introduced
me as "S" and told them that I was the girl who was going to model some of the
outfits.  She introduced me to everyone when I served them drinks.  There were 7
of them, all dressed very smartly. I was really out of place.

When they were all there, Mrs T handed round the catalogues to everyone and told
them that the items with stars were the ones she had to show, and the double
stars were the one's which could be modelled, then she read out a note (which I
know was from Miss Patricia) about how the model is there just to be a clothes
horse and they must feel free to have me wear whatever they wanted and just to
use me as they would a mannequin.  One of the women, who had started looking
through the catalogue, said something like "Well I will have another glass' and
I went to get her glass from her and she pointed to an outfit and told me to put
that on, but she wanted me to get the wine first.
The outfit was a bustier with half-cup bra and a thong, and I had started to
feel ok, but when I went to get the wine, and I know this is silly, but I was
nervous again, but when I went in with it on it was ok, and they were all
talking to each other, and they casually told me to try on other things as the
evening went on.  Nothing too revealing, well my nipples showed and my bottom,
but not like when Patricia is there.  I really enjoyed it, and I had a little
helper.
One time, when I went in the den, Ronnie was in there, and I told her
she should go to bed but she said she couldn't with all the noise, and she asked
if she could stay, and I said she could if she stayed quiet. 
But, the next time I went in to change she helped me, and put the outfit I took
off into the cleaning bag, and she commented, from then to the end, about the
outfits, how they looked pretty, or funny, as they were a nice color.
About half way through, Mrs. T came in the den and found Ronnie and she just
asked her of she was being good, and she said yes, then she asked me if she was
and I said she was fine and then she told me to make some coffee when I was next
out.
Anyway Mistress, it was fun.  And I still get a sexual high even from that, just
walking about serving drinks and just being there with just a bra and panties
on, or the swimming costumes, and Mrs T said that she had really done well with
orders, and everything went well so she was really pleased, but she was
exhausted.  I told her to rest and I folded the samples from the lounge and
packed them away, cleared the cups and glasses and generally tidied up, while
she sat and told me that it all went well.  I expected her to want me to please
her, but she was just collapsed on the sofa and asked me to put Ronnie to bed. 
Then she told me to get dressed in my clothes and then she called for a taxi to
take me back.

Mistress and Miss Hannah teased me about it, about Ronnie, but they were just
joking.  They were both really nice to me, but I didn't eat at all, and I wanted
to tell them but I didn't like to as they were being nice to me.  Miss Hannah
cuddled me on the chair while we watched TV even.

Miss Beatrice has called me in, write later.
Sub

Mistress
I have just come from Miss Beatrice and she came for me with my fingers while i
told her about Ronnie, that's all she wanted to know about, what Ronnie had
done, said, what she had seen, she reached her orgasm really quickly, just from
my fingers.  She had me go in and close the door, so I took my blouse off and
she told me to stand by her, and she asked me what had happened, and she fondled
me while I started to tell her, then I just mentioned Ronnie and she wanted to
know more, then she told me to get down, and I expected she wanted me to
'delight' her, but she held my head back when I had taken her panties down, and
she told me to use my fingers, because she wanted me to tell her while I played. 
That's why she didn't want me to lick her to cum I suppose. She asked me if
Ronnie had seen me nude, and if she had touched me (which she didn't) and if she
saw my vagina, but when I told her she hadn't, she said are you sure, and pushed
it until I had to admit she might have done when I was putting on a costume or
panties.  But it would only have been a glimpse, but she said it was lovely. 
She asked all about her, how tall she was and how old. And she called me a dirty
girl!  What happened to me was by accident and it was innocent. She had an
orgasm because of it.

I have to tell you about something else Mistress.  Last night, Mistress told me
that I was not going to be working for Miss Beatrice.  Apparently she can't have
a little slut with the name Sub Lesbienne on the payroll, so she will be
stopping my employment, though I will still come here sometimes, up to 3 days a
week, and the money which I was being paid will be added to that she pays to
Mistress for consulting. But she also told me that I will be working 2 days for
Miss Patricia at her offices or a shop (I don't know what shop, I didn't know
she had shops).

I have not had any dealings with Trisha Mistress, and Miss Beatrice didn't
mention her at all, but I will keep my ears open as you wished Mistress. 
Miss Beatrice is out now until this afternoon.  I have another show tonight
Mistress.  For another of Miss Patricia's friends, but this time Miss Patricia
is coming too. She is going to pick me up.

I have to man reception over lunch Mistress.  I will try to write more later.

sub
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Weds, June 11

Mistress

I have been very busy, not at work, but otherwise Miss and so I have not been by
a PC for a while. That is why I have not been writing to you recently, and I
don't know how much time I will have today, as Miss Beatrice has been quite
demanding Mistress, and she is still here, and Sharon is also keeping me away
from my desk, but I will do what I can.
Well, I had a show on Friday, and Miss Patricia was there. She had me naked for
a lot of the time, and some of the women, she almost bullied them into touching
me, some in the room, and some in the kitchen when I was getting drinks.  She
even had me greet them in the room naked, with a tray of drinks and she just
told them to get used to me being naked as she wanted everyone to concentrate on
the outfits and not the model. 
One lady seemed to like me, especially, Nicola I think her name was.  She stayed
behind after most of the others had gone and she and Miss Patricia were talking
about me, about how I was a natural submissive, and Miss Patricia showed her by
telling me to kneel down, and then to stand and bend over.  All sorts of things,
but Nicola didn't touch me at all.

On Saturday morning Jackie came around and she and Mistress played with me for a
long time, until my arms really hurt. They didn't cane me though, just spanking,
and Miss Jackie fucked me with the smaller dildo, in my cunt and then in my
bottom.  It really hurt, but she did it anyway and she kept on and on and was
cross that I didn't orgasm, so Mistress
told me that as I was an ungrateful sub then I was not allowed to orgasm
for a week, but it wasn't by chioce Mistress, it just didn't do it.  I
mean I was very excited, once I was over the pain of it, but I just didn't
cum.  It wasn't my fault.  I knew why they didn't cane me, because when
she had gone Mistress told me that I was going to visit Mrs Greeaway and
she wanted me pristine.

Mistress went to visit her sister on Saturday and she took me with her,
and there was a boy there, a young boy (Mistress's nephew I presume),
and he kept looking at me all the time. I felt so uncomfortable. He also
took a picture of me when I was clearing up in the kitchen.  I told
Mistress he had, and she got him to give her a copy Mistress told me to
send it to you, he gave it to her on a diskette.

On sunday, Miss took me out, with Roberta. Miss Hannah drove us to a
Country park which is near here, and dropped us off and we spent ages
walking through the woods and I had to carry everything, and they make me
take my clothes off alot of the time, and when we stopped Roberta
palyed with me, goaded on my Miss.  On monday I was picked up By Melissa and
we went to a house, (I'm not sure if it was her house really, just some
things she was puzzled about when we were there).  I was with them
until 4:00.  They played all their games with me, and they were happy with
me I'm sure.
Yesterday, I was first taken to the clinic for more suntBeatriceing and then
Mistress came, when I came out of the sun room, and she and i went to
see someone about having my hair removed completely.  After that
Mistress took me home and she was so wonderful with me, and she called me
Stephanie, and she said there's just a week of me left. But she was really
nice to me all afternoon.

So, that is what has happened Mistress, I wanted to be sure to tell you
that. And if you don't mind I will send this now so that you at least do
know why I have not written, but I will start another pad and send that
later if I can.

sub
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Mistress

I know you want to know about Trisha so I will start with her.  This morning,
Miss Beatrice had me in on my own first, for me to tell her about what she calls
my 'exploits'. but later she called Trisha in and I was naked, and Miss Beatrice
had me sit on Trisha's lap, so that both I and Trisha were facing her.  She had
me put my legs apart, each side of Trisha's, and she told Trisha to hold my
breasts, and then to fondle them and pull my nipples, and she did everything
straight away, until she said she was getting dead legs from me sitting on her.
She told me to stand next to Trisha and Miss Beatrice made a phone call, and
Trisha put her arm around my waist. 
Nothing much more happened Mistress, but Trisha didn't mind, but it isn't as
though Miss Beatrice really bosses her to do things, she just sort of tells her. 
But, I do think she is at least a bit sub, really.  When I look at her face she
is always smiling when we do things, which is not her normal way, she isn't
really a smiley sort generally.  Well she didn't used to be but there are times
now when she is more generally happy more often.  I'm sure she is a happier
person actually. So it might just be general.

The woman on Friday, Nicola, or it might have been Amanda, I am not
that sure now, well, anyway, she was very pretty and sexy.  She looked very
nicely at me when the show was on, but afterwards I was really sad that Miss
Patricia had me 'perform' like she did.  She had me on all fours, with just a
thong on for her, in the bathroom.  She hardly said anything, it was just Miss
Patricia talking about me and how submissive I was and she told her that I was
actually owned and she made up a story about me having told her I was owned, and
asking her to get new contacts. 
They left the bathroom together, with Nicola saying nothing, except something
like "very interesting" and I just waited there for Miss Patricia to call me,
and I did feel very cheap.

I have just had a call, will write more later Mistress

sub
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Thurs, June 12

Mistress

Sorry I did not get back to you yesterday, I was tied up with things, not
literally tied, just busy, that's what I meant.

I was going to tell you about Mrs. Gxxxxx and M.  I really like going with them. 
They allow me time to myself.  Nothing cruel, just that they go off, or whatever
and make love or just talk between themselves, and they just ignore me, and I am
allowed to get myself drinks when I want.  The only stipulation is that I don't
talk well, that I don't make any noise. Well, they also don't allow me to put
anything on when I am with them, but that's ok anyway.
Once I've been played with, they usually walk away and I have to clean up and
shower when they are done, then I just wait for them to want me for something
again.  Mrs. Gxxxxxx is nice to me, she smiles and is sweet when she asks me to
do something but I don't think M. is so nice.  She isn't cruel or anything, but
she just isn't so nice when she tells me to do things. It's ok though.  Its not
that I mind, its just an observation. They are both married, I know that from
their conversations, but they do love each other too.  It's nice.

I've noticed that you don't write to me Mistress.  Am I boring you?  If I am
please tell me.  If you don't want to know about stupid little details or
whatever then just let me know please.  I'm afraid there is nothing more to say
about Trisha today.  Miss Beatrice had me in on my own this morning, and she was
just working, well, she played with me while she worked, but nothing intense.
And she never called Trisha in.

One thing. I think Sharon is maturing.  She doesn't play 'pranks' on me anymore,
well, neither of them do, they just take me into the store room or the
downstairs office and get me to do things, like show my pussy, and bend over and
show my bottom.  They don't steal my clothes anymore.

Last night Miss took me to her bed, she hasn't done that for a while, well, for
about 5 or 6 days.  It was lovely. She is so sweet and slim, and she caressed me
and licked me, but she didn't get me to cum because her mom has told both of
them that I'm not allowed to because I didn't please Jackie.  But I didn't mind.
It was still lovely.

I will send this now, so that Im sure you get one mail from me today, just in
case things get busy later. 

Thank you for not telling anyone that I hadn't written to you for a few days.  I
hope you understood why I hadn't. To tell you the truth I was a bit afraid you
might have told them again.

Thank you Mistress

Sub

sub,

you are correct in that I have not been writing as often as I have been very
busy.  But, rest assured, I do check my mail first thing and then a few times
during the day in hopes to hear from you.  Keeping up to speed with your life is
of primary importance to me for both my pleasure and to maintain the continuity
of my dairy.
And, yes, I had considered mentioning to your Mistresses that your letters seem
to flow more steadily when the memories and marks of punishment are fresher upon
your mind and body.  Isn't it interesting that, now that you are just a piece of
property, that punishments aren't just something deemed to make you wet?
I do wish that your Mistresses would write more often so I could have for
feedback from their side of the relationship but I know that they also are busy.
And, as I have said before, I do think that it is interesting that, having as
many different women to serve as you do, how different the likes and dislikes of
them all are.  Since personal pleasure is so often denied you by your primary
Mistresses, which of your other mistresses do you long to see the most
frequently so as to gain personal relief and satisfaction?
And I will expect to see that picture you mentioned by the beginning of the
coming week.  It will not bode well for you to displease me in this matter.

Mistress

Mistress
Thank you for writing to me Mistress, and I will attach the picture now, I had
already sent it I thought.  I am sorry Mistress, forgive me,
And thank you for not informing my Mistresses, and you are quite right Mistress. 
The time was when the punishments were part of sexual arousal, but, while there
are still spankings and strappings which are still sexual, for both them and me,
the actual punishments are much more serious and are not sexual, not at all.  I
fear the cane on my anus and cunt lips more than anything. More than, well more
than anything ever.
As for who I like to see Mistress.  I like it when Miss Beatrice has Trisha play
with me because sometimes she does it until i orgasm. As for the others, there
is no one really who worries about giving me an orgasm. 
Sometimes they happen, but none of the others really worry about it. And I don't
expect them to.
Normally Mistress and Misses do bring me to orgasm quite often, which is why it
is so much worse when she does not allow it.
Mistress, if allowed, I will mention that I wrote to you and will mention that
you said that you wished they might write to you.
Mistress, i have just looked at the picture. It isn't a very good picture. 
Mistress said it shows what a slut i am even in her sister's house, but it is
not a good picture at all. You can see that I am filling out again though. Not
so much of a stick insect now.

I will send this now, and thank you again Mistress for writing.  I am sorry you
are busy.


Sub,
I will offer you my sincerest thanks for sending me that picture of you.  you do
know that that is the first picture of yourself I have seen since you sent me
that office bio pic so long ago when we first
started those long years ago.
And it is good to hear that you are still allowed to orgasm frequently.  And
that your punishments are mixed.  And you should fear the cane, dear sub.  I
know how it feels myself and your fears are justified.
Of course you do know that I need to see more pictures of you.  Especially
showing off that tattoo that your Mistresses are so proud of.  So please, in the
next day or three, endeavour to pose for some nudes so that I may see it and
your shaved mons.  Your other option, of course, is that cane you fear so much. 
Fair enough?

Sasha

Friday June 13

Hello Mistress Sasha

This is Jo, how are you. Sub told me you wanted us to write you to let you know
how it is from our side of things, Well it is quite simply wonderful. Donnas is
here with me, we have been out for a pizza and she agrees with me that sub is
simply the best thing to have happened for us.

I just read your last mail to us again, you know the one about us getting it
flat chested. Well we are thinking the opposite way. Patricia has suggested a
bit of augmentation. She also says no mutilation, no tattooes or piercings, then
it is a more innocent look and so more popular.

I have sent Donna away while I write to you a little more personally and I hope
and trust that this part of our little communication will be private between us
only. Are you writing to Beatrice? If you are I do not want tis to reach her
even. The truth is that there is no one I can tell some things to. You see, I
have developed a love and need for sadism I am afraid. I love to see it scared,
and there are so many ways to scare it, either physically, or emotionally and I
just get so aroused seeing it in a panic, seeing its eyes open wide and its lips
taught over its teeth and it cries and sobs but never begs for mercy now and it
shakes. I can threaten it, not even do anything, just the threat of the cane is
enough to reduce it to a petrified wretch, and it is so arousing. I have only
really used the cane on it three times but now it is so afraid that just e
telling it to get it is enough. The other ways to scare it are to tell it to
sleep out in the yard. It used to beg me not to, but now it sobs and crawls out,
well it does not actually crawl but I am sure you know what I mean. The other
way is one I have only used twice but to see the panic in it when I did was so
beautiful. I told it maybe it wanted me to sell it. I told it that Patricia had
customers for it and that we could make a considerable amount of money from
selling it. It wimpered and begged to be forgiven and promised anything and the
last time i threatened to sell it it licked all of the souls of our shoes clean
as an act of repentance and it did not look me in the face again for a couple of
days until I told it to.

It is very good though. So very good, in every way. Sex is still wonderful from
it, for all of us. It is earning some money from some kinky friends of
Patricia's. She is an odd woman, Patricia. Have you written to her at all?
Strange woman! ! ! Han has it to herself tonight. She asked to have to solo time
with it and we all ned that from time to time. Allison is still in love with it
in a way. I thought that she and Han might have developed something but it has
not really happened. They both still love it, and Han has I believe develop
quite a love for me (and here I blush but I am afraid it is really true).

Allison has grown in confidence though you know. You would not recognize her
from six months ago. She is such a lovely girl you know. I am so proud of her
and in love with her.

Donnas here is such a strange girl in a way. She is so elegant, beautiful, sexy
and yet she has these rather strange tastes. I do not even try to understand her
but we are becoming friends.

Well, so that is us now. Write back Sasha, through sub though not here. I know I
can trust it not to read anything addressed to me, but I cannot say the same
about Donna.

Goodnight

Mistress Jo

Sasha: Hello!
Donna: hello sasha
Sasha: who is typing?
Donna: jo has gone im fraid
Donna: Donnas
Sasha: how are you dear?
Donna: she wrote to u
Donna: fine
Donna: u?
Sasha: I know I came in here to reply nd saw that you were on
Sasha: I am doing well.
Donna: was just surfing
Sasha: finding any interesting destinations?
Donna: nothing
Donna: just passing time
Sasha: you ought to be asleep
Donna: i know, can't go yet, feeling someting
Sasha: what are you feeling?
Donna: just feeling a bit strange
Sasha: but not unwell?
Donna: no, im fine thanks
Sasha: ok  good to hear
Donna: sorry about last time, i waspissed
Donna: im not tonight
Sasha: that is o.k.
Donna: did u have a nice dinner?
Sasha: it was good enough for a friday
Donna: we went out for a pizza, just jo and me
Donna: it was nice
Sasha: That is what she said.
Sasha: She likes you alot
Donna: i like her too
Donna: alot
Sasha: have you two been together yet?
Donna: she is so together
Donna: no
Sasha: but you wish it
Donna: she touched my leg tonight
Donna: i think so
Donna: thats why im feelin funny i think
Sasha: you have so much to learn, dear.  These feelings you are having are
natural.  You should give in to them, let go, and do everything your heart is
telling you to.
Donna: she didn't reallydo anthing tho. ive prepd a few guys but i can't with jo
Donna: its easy to get a guy going
Donna: but not with jo
Sasha: easy to get her going also.
Donna: sure
Sasha: may I make a suggestion?
Donna: yes
Sasha: don't proposition her.
Sasha: get alone with her, fall to your knees and offer yourself to her
submissively for her to use.
Donna: I wasn't thinking of that!!!!!!!!!!!
Sasha: and why weren't you?
Donna: well i am not the sub? remember?
Sasha: Yes but if you do as I suggested what you want to have happen will.  The
control will be handed over to someone you trust.  That way you can mentally
justify what happened because it wasn't you, so to speak
Donna: what if she wants to cane me . she can't do that i couldn't let her
Sasha: no pain, Donnas.  Just tell her that you wish to submissively give
yourself to her to give her the gift of your first lesbian experience.
Sasha: it's easiest if someone else causes it to happens and you just give it to
it.
Donna: it sounds so nice the way u say it, but if i said it she would laugh
Sasha: no.  she would know you are serious.  She is a serious woman now.
Sasha: tell her that you love her and that you wish to give yourself to her for
an evening for her to initiate you into girl/girl sex
Donna: I don't know if i LOVE her
Sasha: yes you do. 
Sasha: But love as a friend and mentor is still love.
Donna: ok, maybe that way i do
Donna: u want to know the other thing thats bothering me?
Donna: u there? or busy maybe
Sasha: I am here
Sasha: what is biothering you?
Donna: when i see jo touching han i think about it
Sasha: what is it you are thinking about?
Sasha: wishing she were touching you or you wish you weretouching han?
Donna: u know
Donna: what it would be like to touch her
Sasha: ok.  But there is an honesty and openess in that family that you may
avail yourself of, dear
Sasha: remembeer that everyone involved except it was straight at the begginning
of the year.
Sasha: Only honesty and openness has gotten them as far as they have come
Donna: they must have had thoughts tho
Donna: i never did
Donna: not really
Donna: not seriously
Sasha: thoughts are thoughts.  The will must be there to act on the thoughts.
Sasha: Most women never do.  Again,.  Honesty and openess
Donna: so when jo is next touching han i just go over and do the same
Donna: han will probably whack me
Donna: lol
Sasha: han never would.
Sasha: she might be surprised but she would understand
Donna: shes not called tiger for nothing
Sasha: theor whole existance has been one huge surprise for 6 months now.  One
more will not hurt them.
Donna: lol
Donna: you can say that
Sasha: thereis nothing wrong with being sexually attracted to your sister
Donna: there is
Donna: people don't do it
Sasha: you meant to say that uptight people don't do it.
Donna: most people
Sasha: you have to come to terms witht he fact that this relationship goes far
beyond the boundries of what most people would or would not do.
Sasha: admiting hidden desires is all right, sweetie.
Sasha: holding things in is what causes stress and ulcers
Donna: oh i don't want ulcers so i better pinch her nips when i next see thenm
then?  lololol
Sasha: what I would do were I you is to wait till they are all in a pile.  If
everyone is with everyone than who is to say what is or is not wrong?
Sasha: sure, you should.  You will never know anything until you do
Donna: they don't do that when im there
Donna: i don't know they do it when im not there
Sasha: AAsk to be invited.  But I would recommend something one on one first.
Sasha: maybe with Jo. Or ask to stay over and stay in han's bed.
Donna: i do 1 on 1 with sub
Sasha: maybe you, her and it.
Donna: nme han and sub?
Donna: in bed together???????
Sasha: sure.
Sasha: why not?
Donna: cos she is my sister
Donna: what do i say, hey sis i want to get u into bed tonight
Sasha: answer me one thing honestly, Donnas.  Whom do you want the most
sexually?  It, Jo, or Han?
Donna: ????????????????
Donna: it
Donna: i think
Donna: if i was to have 1 often it would be sub
Donna: she tries to please
Donna: but then
Sasha: continue
Donna: i want to touch han like jo does
Donna: she sits on their sofa and just opens her blouse and touches her
Donna: just like that
Donna: her tits
Donna: her big tits
Donna: lol
Sasha: talk it over with Han.  You owe it to her
Donna: i just don't have a fucking clue how i would even start
Donna: it doesn't work like that in england sash
Sasha: then get yourself into bed with her and it
Sasha: hey!  The US is a whole lot more repressed than tyhe UK
Sasha: what you have there would be very hardto do here
Donna: doesn't sound like it in ur house
Donna: lol
Donna: it would be easlier to do the sub bit for jo
Donna: fall to your knees and offer yourself to her submissively for her to use.
Donna: i wrote it down
Donna: ur busy and i gotta go to bed
Sasha: it would be eaiser with Jo
Donna: yes, thats what im saying
Sasha: but you have to want her as much, right?
Donna: i do, i think
Donna: its all too confusing
Sasha: then it should work.
Donna: ??????????????????????????????????
Sasha: life is confusing it you choose to actually live it, dear
Donna: what if she asks me to lick her pussy and i can't?
Sasha: you chose to and that is why.
Sasha: yoiu can and will.
Sasha: once you offer to give yourself to her, that means you are going to do it
because she would be the one in control.
Donna: and i would be a sub then?
Sasha: yes.  Submissively accepting the experience of what happens
Sasha: this way you couldn't back out.  It would happen as you want it to so
badly.
Donna: its all so black and white for u isn't it
Donna: i wish it was 4 me
Sasha: If life, dear there are two sides on the road.  Isn't  traveling in the
middle between the lanes the most dangerous>?
Sasha: now you will be hurt by both sides of the traffic while being a part of
neither
Donna: what about han and jo?
Donna: wont han be jealous or something
Sasha: not that it is black or white to me.  But you came to me for advice and
wisdom.
Donna: sorry i didn't mean anything by that
Sasha: I sincerely doubt han would be jealous.  She has matured beyond that.
Sasha: look at how they all share each other, Donnas.  Jealousy is not an issue
Donna: tell u what tho, she has always been a bit jealous of me tho
Sasha: STOP MAKING EXCUSES!
Donna: yes Miss lol
Sasha: you see the merits and joy in what they are doing.  You want to try it
all our for yourself.  Admit that openly and do it.
Donna: ok
Donna: i will try sasha
Sasha: or drive yourself crazy wondering what would have happened if you had
Donna: i will offer myself to jo
Donna: i will
Sasha: if you're gay, you're gay.  If you're bi, you're bi.  But you are 26 and
do owe it to yourself to find out, donj't you?
Donna: yes i do
Donna: god i need a drink
Sasha: good.  And whatever you turn out to be, accept it and enjoy it.
Sasha: I am sure you do.  But look how excited all this has made you.
Sasha: you know you want this to happen to you.
Donna: oh god i know
Sasha: you are probably typing with one hand
Donna: if she was here now id be there
Donna: mmmmmmmm maybe
Donna: lololol
Sasha: no maybes
Donna: i have one hand in my panites
Donna: there
Sasha: slut
Sasha: ?
Donna: too right, rofl
Sasha: well, you go diddle yourself to sleep thinking about what I said and
aboiut giving yourself to Jo.
Sasha: let her take control.  You just do what she says
Donna: ok sash
Donna: kissesssssssssssssssss
Sasha: and licks.
Donna: lol
Sasha: you do know that I could really have my way with ou, don't you?
Donna: come here and deal with this wet one
Donna: anytime sash
Sasha: and I mean that seriously.  You are more submisive that you know
Donna: sure
Sasha: and I mean that.
Donna: i don't think i am really
Sasha: get a handle on your desires, dear.  Once you do, figuing everything out
will be easy.
Sasha: be like a colorful balloon.  Go where the desires of the wind take you. 
Don't fight anything
Donna: thats my problem, too many desires lol
Sasha: no problem.  Just deal with them all
Sasha: deal with them.....
Sasha: once you do they will all sort themselves out
Donna: im sure it will
Donna: i should go to bed
Donna: i guess ur gone
Donna: nite
Yahoo! Messenger: Donna has signed out
Sasha: take care, dear.  Sweet dreams

My dearest Josephine,

I thank you for your letter.  And I will keep it just between you and I.  You
know, when I think about things, you are the one who has come the furthest out
of everyone, including it.
The reason why I say this is because look where you were in January.  A divorced
woman struggling to stay abreast of your teenaged daughter.  Now look at you. 
You are the Lesbian Alpha Female of an ever expanding group of lesbians.  You
are also responsible for a true slave, her livlihood, as well as pimping her to
earn more income. Your desires for sadism stem from many areas.  First off, it
is fun to actually have something you own that grovels before you of it's own
free will.  Making it jump satisfies an urge we all have to bully something and
have it cower at our feet.
Additionally you mentally feel that you need to constantly reinforce your Alpha
position with it because you are not the only one mating with them. (I have to
use those animal kingdom words here for simplicity)  In the wild, if you are the
alpha, you would have to always ride herd on your mate to keep it from being
taken by others.  Here you are renting it out to others and you subconsciously
feel the need to re-assert your position with it.  When you see it cower, you
feel powerful.  The power makes you feel sexually alive.  One downfall you get
into with the position you are in is that you sometimes can get innured to the
usual things because you are so fine tuned toward dominant sexual fetishes. 
Once you get used to spices in your dinner, you can get an addiction to more and
more spices, understand?
But to temper this need for pain you have your love of Hannah.  And that love is
returned.  Cling to that love, nourish it, and use it to curb your need to cause
fear in it.  You do know that you and Han ought to exchange vows, don't you?
And by the way, I had an interesting chat with Donna.
Confidentially, she wants to be with you sexually.
She is very nervous, which is why you are always getting mixed messages from
her.  I told her that she should offer herself submissively to you for you to
use sexually for an evening.  No pain.  Just an introduction to lesbianism.  But
if you were in control she couldn't chicken out and giving herself to you is a
way of preventing that.
I do also think that she is sexually attracted to her sister.  Some of it might
be wishing that it were you touching her the way you do Han but I do think that
she has some of the same sort of issues you do with Allison.  Secretly wanting
each other.  I don't know if you and Allison have ever consummated your
relationship but I have always thought that if you had, it would be the greatest
expression of love that there could be between two relations.  I feel the same
about Donnas and Hannah.
Digest all that, dear Josephine.  Relax and take pause to examine your feelings. 
Recognize how far you have come in such a short while.  You could teach classes
on domiance now, you know.  You are coming close to surpassing your teacher. 
Maybe, hand in hand, you and I can navigate the great unknown that is
beyond......

Lovingly,
Sasha

Monday June 16

Mistress

Mistress I have printed out the mail you sent to my Mistress and it is sealed in
an envelope for her this evening. I did let her know that you would like them to
write to you Mistress, does this mean that she did? 
She was out with Miss Donnas, she may have written from there.  But that is not
my business, I just want you to know that I did tell Mistress about your mail. 

I have news for you of Trisha and Miss Beatrice. She had me tell Trisha about
when I undressed for Ronnie - well she didn't name her, just that she was a
young girl, and she made me tell her that I undressed lots of times in front of
her, and she asked Trisha what she thought, and Trisha just said 'well she
undresses alot' or something like that, and Miss Beatrice said that she thought
it was beautiful just like when I am naked with Trisha.

This is my first day of 'not working' for Miss Beatrice.  On friday night she
had me in her office and told me that I should come in here today, because she
had an arrangement with Miss Patricia, but she was very sweet and she gave me a
glass of champagne, with Trisha and Doreen, like it was my leaving 'do' or
something.

I had a nice weekend.  I saw Mistress's ex husband and his new girlfriend when
they picked Miss up on Saturday.  She is really quite ugly, not just plain, but
she really isn't very pretty at all, but she is sexy in the way she dresses. I
can't imagine why he would leave my Mistress for her. My Mistress was with me
and she was just laughing at how silly he looked with a bimbo on his arm, but
she really isn't pretty enough to be a bimbo.  But we laughed about it anyway.
She never seems upset about it, about them having split up.
I didn't go and see anyone this weekend. Most of the time I was doing cleaning
and washing, but I don't mind that.  I had a lovely time with Miss Hannah,
though she did pull at my labia really very hard and for a long time, but she
was smiling when she did it so I was happy.  Mistress did send me to go over and
see Mrs J, and I sat with her for an hour or so, having a cup of tea.  She just
isn't phased at all when I go now, and she just accepts me being naked.  She
always rushes me into her flat but after that she just ignores that I am naked. 
She is very sweet.  I offered to clean her oven but she said it was ok just now,
but that she would let me know when it needed doing and she giggled. 

Well, I better go for now.  Sharon is here and she told me earlier that she
wants me to help her with a mailing.

Sub

Tuesday June 17

Sasha
I am writing this while they are all out. I will have sub type it up and send it
from Patricia's tomorrow. I prefer to write rather than type, leave the typing
to the slave eh?
I have to say that I think it a little unfair of you to say that I was
struggling with Allison, but I do know what you mean.
I am shocked with what you say about Donna and would be very surprised if
anything came of it, but I will keep you abreast of any developments.
Incidentally I am not in the least worried about my sadism to sub (and it is
quite fun for it to read this and have to type it to you.  mmmm). I KNOW it
loves to be here for us and if that includes a little pain then it will be here
for me to inflict a little pain, and when it gets a little pain I get a little
sexual thrill, just as I do when it sluts its little mouth on my pussy.  Don't
worry, my darling Sasha, everything is under control.

Only 2 days to go the stephanie is gone forever. Don't forget to send it a
goodbye card.  Allison (and this will be news to sub when she types it tomorrow
- maybe I will have it read it to me over breakfast before it goes to 'work'),
Allison wants to give it a party for its rebirth and we will have June 18th as
its new birthday. I am going to talk it through with the girls when they all get
in.

It's nice to have this time to myself. I'm sitting here with a glass of wine,
Tatu playing away on the stereo (yes I do listen to the girls music).

Oh, I've just thought of something else to let you and sub know about (Now it
just has to read this to me in the morning!!!!), we have decided that we have to
get its nipples fixed. Patricia has been investigating and its a simple op to
reverse inverted nips and Patricia thinks it will be a boon, so we are checking
for clinics and costs.

Ohhhh I can't wait for it to read this to me to see its little face when it
learns our plans.

Lovingly
Josephine

Mistress

I am at Miss Patricia's offices today.  I have just typed and sent a letter to
you from my Mistress, She gave it to me last night to read and when I read that
she was going to spend some of their money on fixing my nipples I was so pleased
Mistress.  I cried. I have always hated my nipples for being inverted, and now
they wont be. Mistress told me that she thought i might have been upset but I
wasn't, not at all, I think it is a beautiful thing and Miss said it could be my
birthday present.  Miss Hannah, well they all, were talking about enlarging my
breasts while they were doing it and they talked about that while my Mistress
hugged me.  I felt so warm and cared for Mistress.  It was lovely.  I am very
lucky.  Perhaps the luckiest person in the world.  My Mistress even asked me if
I thought my breasts should be enlarged, and when I said "That is for you to
decide Mistress", she hugged me even closer and just smiled at me and told me
that I knew my place and she told me I was precious.

My Mistress said I might talk to you about the contents of the letter except
about Miss Donna, so I wanted to talk to you about the pain things and what She
said in Her letter.  She is right Mistress.  I am here for Her, for all of them,
and if what they wish to do is to inflict pain on me then I will be here for
that.  They can do anything to me and I will never complain, Never.  I will
thank them, forever, for whatever they do to me. And sometimes the pain is
sexually exciting for me, really it is.  It's only sometimes that the pain takes
over from the excitement - mostly it is the fear of the pain that is worse than
the pain itself. And my cunt lips do bruise easily from the cane, but i know
that Mistress does not want to mark me, so she is also being thoughtful of me
when she canes me there and not on my tits or back.

I just wanted to let you know how I feel Mistress. 

Today is my last day.  That's what Miss Hannah said to me this morning when she
woke up.  She asked me what it felt like, and I didn't really have any feelings
about it.  I haven't really used my stephanie name much in about a month for
anything so it really wont make any difference. Oh I know there will be times
when it will be embarrassing to tell people my name, but I am protected from
that.  These days I am introduced usually, and then its just as 's'. 

They had the final papers through yesterday, there was a copy of the deed, it is
on the fridge in Mistress's flat now.  From tomorrow i can legally sign myself
as Miss S Lesbienne.  It's weird, isn't it.  Mistress has told me that I am not
going to be allowed to get a driving license or a passport.  The forms said that
I had to apply for replacements but Mistress told me i would not need them.

Miss Patricia has just arrived - i heard her voice in the cutting room - so I
should go.  I really don't know what i am supposed to do here really.

Sub

Happy Birthday, sub!

Stephanie is gone.  Disappeared, dead, if you will.  I just wanted to
congratulate you on the successful assumption of a totally new life and
existence.  You have taken that final step that less than 1% of submissives out
there ever embark on, the total loss
of one's former identity and life.
You are now nothing.  A non-person. A piece of property to be used as your
owners see fit.  You have no job, no money, no credit, no car, no home, no
friends, no relatives, and no purpose other than to be a sexual tool and servant
for your owners.  And make sure you put every effort into serving them to the
best of your ability.  Your life depends on them now.
You live at their whim.  And I can tell you honestly that there is a market for
property such as yourself should they ever decide to tire of you.  You are worth
a lot of money in this market, certainly close to six figures for the right
customer.  And consider that most of these customers are men who care not a whit
that you are a lesbian.  You preference would be that of your owner.  You are
lucky your current owners are lesbians like you.  So take care not to ever tempt
your Mistresses to take that final step and sell you.
Welcome to your new life, sub.  A life of servitude, pleasure, and pain.
You will do well.  Your Mistresses love you dearly and
I have helped to train you well.  I await your continuing diary of your new
existence.

Mistress Sasha

Weds June 18


Mistress

I had thought to tell you about last night, but I have read your mail from
yesterday and I know what I have to tell you.

It is something about which I have thought a lot about, especially in the last 4
weeks or so.

In my dreams, I imagine a time when I am too old to serve them sexually and
Mistress Jo will retain me as a companion or servant.  I know that Miss Allison
and Miss Hannah will still be young and beautiful and vibrant and will not want
me.  But perhaps, just perhaps (n my dreams at least) Mistress Jo will keep me,
in some capacity.  A cook, or housekeeper perhaps.

But, Mistress, I am not stupid or naive, and my Mistress has made it clear that
she can sell me, and I know that she can, and I do know that my salability is
not due to my looks, which are merely average, nor due to my body, which is
uninspiring (I know that), and it is not due to the fact that I am lesbian,
because there are many of us about.

No.  The reason she would be able to make some money out of this 'thing' that I
have become, is my tolerance of willingness to endure pain.  I do know there are
sadists and I know there are some very wealthy people who are perhaps bored with
the mundane who would be prepared to pay a lot of money for something different. 
And what I am is that something different.

Ms Beatrice has told my Mistress that with the proceeds of selling this sub, She
could buy a nice house and have money to retire on, and that is such a wonderful
thought, that I could serve Her in that way.

If She decided to sell me, then of course She will, and I will not react against
it.  I know I will be absolutely desolate. I know that.  I will cry and will
hurt so badly inside.  Hurt more than any beating could hurt.  But if it is Her
will then I will go, and they will get lots of money, and I have thought and
thought about what I would do.

I have had lots of time to myself; tied overnight, left outside in the yard in
the night and unable to sleep.  And of course at those times I think.  I used to
think of how I was feeling, but I now know that my Mistress does not want me to
think about my feelings, so I started to think of how I might please them more,
and of things I would do if She did sell me, or WHEN she does sell me.  I know
it will come, that one day She will sell me.  I have no reason to think that
there won't be a time when She might get bored with me, or perhaps She might
find another man or woman as a partner, and this sub would be an embarrassment. 
And so it will come, and this sub will be sold.

I thought about what I would do when it happens, and my initial thought was the
simplistic - that I would just kill myself, but there are two reasons why this
is a stupid notion.  One - I doubt that I have the self-control to be able to
actually cut my wrists, or gas myself or whatever.  Second, and more
importantly, if I were to kill myself then that would impact on them, and it
would not be their fault that this sub had been sold.  It would be mine, and
they might have to give back the money.  So I have decided - and this isn't a
snap decision or an unconsidered whim Mistress - I have decided that I would go
with my new owner, and beg and plead to be beaten, fucked, fisted, whipped,
kicked, everything. I can hide most of the extremes of pain Mistress.  I cry, of
course I cry, but even when my Mistress whipped my cunt lips with the cane last
time I never even mumbled for her to stop, even though it was more extreme pain
than I ever imagined.  My heart stopped momentarily when the cane whipped onto
me.  My whole body convulsed.  I pulled my shoulders off the floor with the
reaction my body had to each strike, but I didn't ask her to stop. I thanked
her.  Through sobs and whimpering and quiet screams as aftershocks of the pain
went through me. But I did manage to thank her.  And if I can summon whatever it
is that one summons to do that, then when my new owner starts to beat me, whip
me, or whatever they wish to do to this sub, I can ask them to do it harder, to
be more vicious. They would get their sexual kick or sadistic kick, and I would
keep goading them to do more and more and worse and worse, I would plead with
them to hit me harder, to fuck me deeper, anal fucking with something bigger and
deeper, whipping and batons, fists, knees ... and some time the bleeding would
come.  I expect it would be internal bleeding and I would then know that I am
dying and I would be happy.  I will die in pain - I know that.  I know that it
will not be pleasant or pain free and that it might well be a slow death but I
would have time to think about all that I had done for them, and how they had
said at various times that I served them well. I would think of the time that my
Mistress told me that she loved me, and that Miss Allison once said she would
always want me, and Miss Hannah telling you and I in chat in her warehouse that
she loved me, and I would smile, at least inside, and be happy in my mind at my
death.

I am not at all morbid about this Mistress.  It is just an escape.  A way out. 

I almost hope that my Mistress will take away almost all of my own will, She has
taken most away already:  They decide what I will wear when I go out, and I now
never question, not even in my own mind, I never question what I am dressed in. 
I eat what they leave for me, from my bowl on the floor.  I drink water only
when I am in their home, either from the tap or from their bladders.  I bend
when they tell me to, I open my legs when I am told, I do not talk unless I am
asked a question.  I am losing my own will, but this escape I have designed She
will not be able to take away from me.

And you are right.  I have no job, no money, no credit cards, no bank accounts,
no passport, no car, no friends, no relatives, BUT, what I do have that so few
others have, is Owners and I do have the will to try to please and serve them,
and I will always do as they tell me, and I will take whatever punishments they
wish to inflict on this body or this mind, and I will thank them for correcting
me.   And that way I will stave off the time when they wish to sell me. 

And now I am crying with the thought of me losing them.  Forgive me
Mistress

from sub lesbienne

proud to be owned by Mistress Jo, Miss Allison and Miss Hannah

sub,

I understand your feeling that you have to prepare yourself for when your lovely
life will end.  One thing you must remember that even though your will is being
taken from you, maintain your self esteem.
Do not forget that what you are and what you do is something rare and beautiful. 
And what you do you do better than anyone else out there.  Yes, this fact does
raise your value on the street but it also gives your Mistresses good reason to
keep you.  So continue to persevere and serve and your life will remain as
magical as it has been.
Also remember that, as big a part your Mistresses are to your life, you are as
big a part in their lives.
They would have more regrets over losing you than you them.  Really.  A sub such
as yourself comes along only once in many lifetimes.  Believe it!  You are much
harder to replace than they are.
All of you have assumed your proper roles, sub.  But the love that created the
relationship remains.  So sleep easy in that thought.
And please don't think that Mistress Sasha will let you lose all your will and
identity.  No one wants you mindless.
You always have been and will be the perfect sub.

Mistress Sasha

Mistress Josephine,

Just a thought here.  Call it a whim.  Remember how a few months ago I suggested
having a tea every two weeks or so where it could express itself as a person?
Well, I know your reasons for not doing that and I agree with them.  What I do
suggest is to, every two weeks or so, devote a day where all you Mistresses
devote yourselves to showing it how deeply you do care for it.
When you look at slavery.  You realize that slaves were occasionally given days
off.  And Masters do take time to walk, pet, and pay attention to their dogs.  I
would recommend figuring out a way that you can show it how you do care for it
and appreciate it's unerring devotion to you all.  Especially since it is away
often servicing others.
This is all in an effort to maintain it's mental health.  It's one thing to be
able to turn it into something mindless and to take away all choices from it. 
But we do want to remember that it does have a keen mind and part of overall
health is to keep that mind sharp.
One wouldn't want as fine a jewel as it to lose it's luster, would we?
A Mistress must be able to provide the assurance to a slave that it is
performing well and that all it's efforts are sincerely appreciated.  This only
serves to make the slave strive harder to serve.
Just a suggestion that comes from me and not from it.

Lovingly,
Mistress Sasha

Mistress

Please forgive me for this, but I have seen your reply to me, and for what you
have said I am (as always) grateful to you for your kindness, but I have also
seen that you have written again to Mistress.

I fear that this second mail to Mistress might refer to my mail to you earlier,
and I do not wish them to know of those thoughts I have had. 
Please, Mistress, forgive me, but that mail was between You and I, please. 
Allow me to have this secret from my Mistresses please, as I fear that it might
cause them distress, but it shouldn't.  If and when they have finished with me
then it should not matter what happens to this body, and I would not wish them
to have any doubts about what they decide. 

It is like when we buy and eat sausages.  We buy them and eat them, and enjoy
them, without thought for the events which led up to the creation of the
sausage.  The death of the pig, it's slaughter, the bleeding of its carcass. 
All of that does not enter our consciousness when we decide to eat it. 

Similarly, I don't want what may happen to this body to be in their
consciousness when they think about selling me. 

Please forgive me Mistress but I beg of you to allow me to delete your second
mail, and not to have to give it to Mistress Jo.

Please forgive and understand Mistress.  I have already printed out your first
mail this morning.  It is safely in a sealed envelope and will of course give
that to Her.


Sub, Give her the letter, sub.  You are safe.  Your letter was not mentioned. 
Your secrets are safe with me

Sasha

Thursday June 19


Mistress

I am sorry that I doubted you.  Of course I will print your last mail for
Mistress Jo and give it to her.  I am going from here at lunchtime so I will see
her then.  Thank you for understanding what I meant and not being cross with me
for having withheld your mail. I will never doubt you again, nor question
whether I should forward your mails.

Last night I gave Mistress your first note from yesterday, and she gave me just
this note to type to you:

"Sasha my love,
That's further than I am thinking at the moment, but you're right Patricia does
know some contacts.
I'll write more tomorrow.
Jo"

Yesterday, Ms. Beatrice was upset with me, well she was quite angry for a while. 
I just didn't understand her instructions, and now she has explained I will be
good. 
She told me to 'be nice' to a guest she had yesterday.  Carey had dressed me in
a micro mini lycra skirt, a G string, and a bra type top (but it wasn't padded
at all like a normal bra - more like a very brief top than a bra really).  She
told me before the woman came, her name was Margie, that I was to be nice to
her, and when she came I asked her if she wanted a coffee, and I offered her a
seat in Ms Beatrice's room, and they sat and I just stood by and they talked
about the collection. After a while, Ms Beatrice excused us and she took me
outside, and she told me that I must stop being such a priggish little thing and
she told me to be nice to Margie and she told me, quite plainly, that she meant
that I must flaunt myself at her and fuss over her and when Ms Beatrice excused
herself the next time I must engage Margie and try to see if she wants to touch
me, and if she put her hand on my I must move her hand to my breasts, pussy or
bottom. She was really quite cross with me.

What surprised me was the way Ms Beatrice talked to me.  Normally she had been
just very matter of fact about me and to me, but yesterday she pushed me against
the wall outside of her office and she started poking me and saying "I don't
know why YOU think you are here but I know that you are here to help me interest
customers in my ranges and in fucking you for a few hours. I want her leaving
here feeling that you want her to fuck you, and she asked me if I understood and
I told her I did, but she went on and on about how I was to behave. I was also
to ask Margaret if she would allow me to demonstrate some of the outfits too,
whenever she was interested in anything I'd had on before.  She told me I was
just an entertainment and that Margie's shops could be a ?200,000 order and she
told me to "sell it".

Afterwards Ms Beatrice was ok with me though, but she says I have to have some
deportment training, because I don't sit upright, or stand properly, and she
said that they have to get my nipples fixed and maybe die my hair.

I am Ms Sub Lesbienne.  It's a pretty name isn't it? At one point when they were
discussing it I might have been Slut or Slutty, and while they are accurate they
are not as pretty in the way they sound are they.  Not that it matters, I was
just doodling my name for a minute. Actually, Mistress says it isn't a name, it
is just a description.  So I was doodling my description.

There is a delivery I have to help with.  I will write later maybe, or tomorrow. 
This afternoon Mistress is taking me shopping with her.

Sub

Friday June 20

Mistress

This may be a long mail, and it may be interrupted, as Corey will want me to
help her with some things during the day.

Yesterday, my Mistress told me to write down everything that had happened
yesterday so that you know 'how things are' and so that I remember it and 'stop
being a stupid sub'.

Mistress picked me up from Ms Beatrice's offices yesterday, and we went to go
shopping for some clothes for Her, and I gave Her your mail from the day before,
but she put it into Her bag and we went out.  We bought some things for Her and
then she stopped for coffee and got me a water, and when we had sat down she
opened your mail and read it, and she asked me what I had told you. And I didn't
understand, and I told her that I had just told you about things that happen to
me outside of the house, and she said you must have told her more, and I said I
did mention some other things and she started to get angry with me, and she told
me that I had to tell her, and that she knows I had said something else, because
one day you (Mistress Sasha) had said that she should pimp this pain sub to the
world and then she says something completely different. She wanted to go back to
Ms Beatrice's office to look at my mail, and I had to tell her that I don't keep
my sent mail, so she told me to tell her.  I begged her to not have me tell her,
but she got up and told me we were going back.

She didn't talk to me all the way back, and once inside, I stripped and just
stood and waited while she put her things down and took off her shoes.  She took
me into the lounge, she sat and she held my hands and told me something like:
(It might not be exact Mistress)
"Sub. You are not allowed any secrets from me. You just don't have the place
anymore to have any secrets from me. You are mine, physically and mentally.
There isn't anything else for you but to be here with us. So you just cannot
allow yourself to think for a moment that you can have secrets.  If you want me
to I will have great pleasure in caning it out of you. But you will tell me
everything. It is your choice".  And I asked her if I may speak, and she said
that I would have to in order to tell her what it was that I had said to you,
and I asked, no I begged her that it wasn't anything disrespectful to Her or
Miss Hannah, or to anyone, it was just me letting you know something that really
doesn't matter.
She told me that I don't have any right to decide what matters, and she asked me
if I wanted the cane on my cunt, and I got to my knees and begged her that I
didn't, and I said please lots of times, and she just said, "So, you will tell
me everything" and I did.  I told her that it was about what I would do when she
sold me, and that I would be a good pain sub to a sadist, but she said that
wasn't enough, that it didn't explain why you (Mistress Sasha) had changed the
way you talked about me and she told me to get the cane.
I did, I went into the bedroom and got it, and handed it to her and knelt down
again and asked her if I may tell her more, and she said yes, so I told her that
I had talked about the fact that when I was sold, I would beg my new owners to
beat me until I died.
And this but I am going to remember as best I can Mistress but I was crying and
I don't know why I was because she hadn't hit me then, but she dropped the cane
and looked puzzled or troubled, I wasn't sure, but she took my hands in hers and
said "You don't really want that much pain do you?" and I swear she looked
worried.  I told her that I didn't want it, I really told her that I didn't, not
at all. I didn't want her to think that I did, and so I told her - but I was
crying when I did, and she just looked at me and listened so patiently, anyway
Mistress, I told her that if she sold me, and if I lost them then it just
wouldn't matter what happened to this body and that I had told you that and that
was why you might have changed.

I was sobbing and looking down at my knees and she still had my hands in hers,
and she pulled me forward and kissed me and told me that she loved me and that
Allison and Hannah love me and unless I am very stupid. I will not be sold, and
I just looked at her, and she said 'never. 
Even if i ever did get bored of you - which i wont - Allison has said if she
ever leaves home she wants to take you with her so you are ours now. And she
said 'Forever'. And I fell forward and kissed her hands and I cried and cried
and said Thank You Mistress, Thank you, over and over. Then she stood up, still
holding my hands and she took me into the bedroom and she told me to undress her
and she laid me down on the bed, and she touched me between my legs and she told
me I was loved and she fingered me over and over, and inside of me, and when I
was really so close she bent over and kissed my cunt and I came in such a flush. 
I was burning inside and i had such an orgasm. I don't know how long it had been
since I was last allowed to orgasm but this was so special Mistress, so
complete, and so many, all at once. I came and came on her lovely face and I
knew i shouldn't but I couldn't stop and I came for so long and I was exhausted
and sweaty and horrid and just closed my eyes for a
moment, but it must have been more than a moment because then she was slapping
my face with her beautiful breasts and then I made love to her over and over. 
It was wonderful. She slapped me and pinched me as she came on my mouth,
squirting her lovely juices in my mouth and over my face as she came, and once
she told me to go and get the cane, and Mistress I wasn't afraid, I wanted her
to whip me with it, even though it hurts. I wanted her to be happy with me and
she has told me in the past that she likes to whip me.  I held it out for her,
and I said "Whip me please Mistress" I was so happy, and she smiled at me and
told me to lay down at the edge of the bed, and she got off the bed and whipped
me quite hard on my cunt lips, but not onto my clitoris, and as she did it she
told me that I must never keep my doubts to myself, I said; no, Mistress, and
she whipped me again twice, then she sat on my face and I sucked her and played
with her breasts and she came so wonderfully for me. 
It was so beautiful, and it was her turn to collapse and I kissed all of her as
she lay there, sort of asleep, and I whipered "Thank you Mistress" as I did. 
And I kissed every inch of her beautiful body, her knees her feet, her toes,
everywhere.  She didn't open her eyes at all, but she did smile when I kissed
her eyebrows.

Hannah came in, I heard her, so I got off the bed and I covered my
Mistress with the sheet, but she sat up and when Miss Hannah came in, she told
her "Han, tell sub how much you love her", and Miss Hannah just looked puzzled,
and she sat on the edge of the bed and asked why, but Mistress just said "Tell
her" (and she did say 'Her') and Miss Hannah said "I love her as much as I love
you" to Mistress.  Mistress told her to tell me, so Miss Hannah got up and she
came to me and she just held my arms and she told me "I love you sub", and
Mistress asked her "Do you want to lose her?" and Miss Hannah said "No" and
Why?, and Mistress just told her to tell me and she looked at me again and said
"I don't want to lose you sub, you can't leave, you belong to us" and she
sounded really upset and she gripped my arms tighter, but Mistress asked Miss
Hannah to go out and when she had gone Mistress said to me "You see sub how much
you mean to us?" and I said yes Mistress, and she told me to stop thinking of
anyone but Her abusing my body to extremes, and she smiled at me and I smiled
back, then she told me to go and get drinks for her and Miss Hannah.

When I got back in, Miss Hannah was naked, and Mistress told me She had told
Miss Hannah that I had had some doubts about whether they still wanted me, so
she had to show me how much she loved me, and Miss Hannah said she wanted to
fist me until I came, and she sat me on the edge of the bed, pushed me backwards
till I was laying down,, she pulled me knees up high and I held them and she
worked her fingers at my cunt, opening me up, and pushing until I felt myself
open to her and she put her hand into me, and slid it in and out of my cunt, and
I could feel her hand and arm, and my lips being drawn in and out with her arm
and I was pushing against her arm and then Mistress took one of my hands away
and she pulled my leg out of the way and she leant down and kissed my clit with
Miss Hannah's hand inside of me and I came again and again.  I was unaware of
anything except my cunt, and how it hurt and was being pleasured and stretched
and kissed and everything about me was my cunt and the feelings I was having
there and the orgasms became almost painful but they were beautiful and they
didn't stop and then I lost myself in it all, and the next thing was Miss
Hannah, holding my face and telling me she needed to pee and she sat on me and
she peed her beautiful urine into me. Part of her was becoming part of me and it
was so beautiful Mistress. She stayed on me and she let me lick her beautiful
hairy pussy, and suck her and she pushed down on me and rubbed her beautiful
lips over my face until she came.  She dropped back across me, and rolled off me
and I turned to her and her bottom was at my face and I held her soft round
cheeks in my hands and she pushed back against me and I held them open and
tasted the sweat and licked it from between her cheeks and I kissed and licked
her lovely star and Mistress stroked my hair as I licked and tried to taste my
lovely Miss Hannah.

Mistress, I was so deliriously and completely happy, I knew I didn't deserve
them, I should not be given so much pleasure, I don't deserve it, but they were
happy with me, they both said they loved Me!

I couldn't be happier Mistress.  I just couldn't.

When Miss Hannah had calmed, she sat up and I did too, and while my
Mistress dressed Miss Hannah pulled at my nipples and twisted them in her
fingers while she talked to Mistress. 

I have just remembered.  Mistress asked me to ask you to send her a copy of the
mail I sent you, and she asked me to please try to ensure that you sent the
whole thing, and I would very much like you to please Mistress.

I will send this now Mistress, but I will write more later.

Sub

Josephine,

Just got it's letter about last night.  She couldn't be happier.  And as long as
those feelings are pushed to the forefront every so often, I feel that you will
get better service from it.
Believe me when I say I haven't changed my tone.  I still feel that if you
embarked on the plan I had to start your own company you would all have fun and
make money from it.  But what I wrote you had been growing on my mind for a
while since this relationship has become more and more formalized.  I have been
on the lookout for it showing signs that it was apathetic to it's situation and
future.  Every now and then a pet must be, well, petted, to remind it how it is
loved, even though it's life of service might be hard.  And it is so easy for
all of us to become trapped, if you will, in our roles to the point that we
could never cross a line.
You and Hannah did wonderfully and now, it knowing how much you care, you can
continue to use and abuse it. Mustn't let it get too used to soft, mushy
feelings, can we?
Here is what it wrote: (reprinted sub's letter from June 18)

Sasha

Sasha
This is Josephine. I was in town and I called in to see if you had sent that
mail yet, and I have just read what it wrote and i had to send it out because i
was in tears at what it wrote and it writes so beautifully and about it dying in
pain but it doesn't matter if it is in pain because it had lost us.
It is the most beautiful thing i have ever read. i shall keep it forever.
Now i have to clean myself up and try to breath properly again.
i love it so much.
Josephine

Monday, June 23

Mistress

I have a file from the sharp for you from my Mistress.  It is attached. 

I have some good news for you today Mistress, about Trisha.  I have been with
Trisha most of this morning.  We were working together in the lower office, for
Miss Beatrice.  She has been in and out all morning, and once she had Trisha
take my shirt off, so I just had my mini on, and she had Trisha pull at my
nipples and she tried to get her to put her hand on my cunt but Trisha didn't
want to in case someone came in.  Miss Beatrice only usually has her play with
me when we are in her office, this is a little more public and someone might
have come in, so later this afternoon we are going to Miss Beatrice's house,
Miss Beatrice, Trisha and this sub.  So hopefully I may have something to tell
you tomorrow Mistress.

Over the weekend, I was a birthday present for one of the ladies from the club. 
Miss Donna arranged it when she and Miss Hannah took me there last week.  I
meant to tell you about that Mistress.  But I went off and told you about what
would happen if I were sold if you remember.  They took me to the club as a
re-birth party.  Miss Donna kissed me, fully on the lips (like last time - do
you remember?) and Miss Hannah danced with me, and so did a few of the other
ladies.  The lady who runs the pub came over a few times to talk with us, and
she fondled me a bit, and one time she told them that it was Diana's birthday at
the weekend.  Everyone likes Diana but she can be a bit grumpy apparently, and
Dandy (that's the landlady of the pub) said that she is missing a bit of sex,
and so Miss Hannah said that they would lend me to her to cheer her up. 
Dandy said it was unfair because she didn't get me for her birthday, and they
laughed, and they promised she could have me anytime she wanted.  Anyway, they
arranged for me to be a birthday present for Diana. 
We really had fun at the club Mistress.  At one point we danced together, and
when the song finished, Miss Hannah kissed me, then Miss Donna kissed me (real
kisses, really quite passionate both of them) and then they kissed one another. 
Not quite so passionately though, but it was on the lips. I just thought it
looked lovely. I didn't think they were together at all.

My Mistress hasn't mentioned anything about that other business
Mistress.  About me being sold or anything.  She got a bit cross with me on
Saturday when Miss had gone riding.  I hadn't cleaned Miss' riding boots, so
Mistress put me on my hooks - by the hands, and she clipped my nipples and my
cunt lips and weighted them and left me there while she had lunch and just told
me that I was ungrateful, and that I must take care of Miss Allison's things.
When she let me down she asked me if I had learned my lesson, and I said I would
take special care of Miss' things and I thanked her and she petted me and said I
was a good girl, but she did pull at my nipples just after she released the
clips and it was agony, but it was part of the lesson.  Afterwards she took me
into her room and she allowed me to drink her and then pleasure her, but she
cuffed my hands as they were not worthy to touch her.

Anyway Mistress.  I will write to you tomorrow about what Miss Beatrice has
Trisha do.

sub   x

(from Josephine)
Sasha
Thinking about what you wrote, i don't know what it has told you but it does get
rewards. regularly. it is loved around here you know and so it is bound to
happen. i have read and read that note it wrote to you. it is beautiful isn't
it. so beautifully written, and it is like that when it tell us what happens to
it when it is away.
we have a request from the woman with the girls to see it again, Patricia has
told her it has expenses to pay and while it visits it is not working and she
said she would pay just for an hour or two, so another ?50 to the bank, lol as
for Donna. she has been avoiding me i think. she and han took it out last week
but she dropped them off and didn't come up and we have not seen her all
weekend. i think i need to tell her that it is all up to her and anyway i do not
kow what i would do with her beautiful and oh so perfect body.
Finally, you have asked before so i might as well tell you. i have been to bed
with Allison and i have tasted her and she me. it was a one off and i do not
imagine it will happen again, not like that anyway, but i feel i can touch her
as i with and she me. so it was a good thing to have done i think.  must go,
wine is going off. lol
sub is with han at the moment. knowing han it will be lying down with a face
full of hans pussy and ass, lol


Monday June 30

Mistress

I have been very busy lately and my Mistress is very pleased with me.

Last week I spent much of one day with Angela (Mrs Turner).  Her daughters were
not there and we had a really nice time, mostly making love with each other, and
she really seems to like me licking her pussy and her breasts.  Her nipples are
amazing.  I don't know why I mentioned that, but they are.

I also spent one afternoon with M., and aside from her using me as a toilet she
also allowed me to make love with her.  Lots of times. 
Apparently her friend is away for a while, so she got in touch with Ms Beatrice.

My Mistress and I also went to a clinic on Friday, about my nipples. 
The consultant there looked at my breasts and she said that there was a simple
recovery for my nipples, to stop them being inverted.  It is going to cost about
?480, and my Mistress didn't think that was so very much.  The consultant said
that within a month the incisions would be completely healed, but that for a
week or so I should be careful. 
Apparently it is a small incision, and much of what they have to do is internal
so there won't be that much to show.

I am with Miss Beatrice today.  She has been very nice to me this morning.  She
wanted me to tell her all about last week and she is pleased that I am getting
my breasts fixed.

You know Mistress, for years I have hated my nipples, but everyone has told me
that it didn't matter, and some people have said that they are 'cute', but this
shows that they were just being kind to me really, because everyone has now said
that it is good that they are getting fixed. 
Previously I have just not been brave enough to do anything about them, but now
it is not my choice so it is easy, and I am so very pleased about it, and not at
all scared.

I'm afraid that Trisha is off this week on holiday, so I do not have any news
about her.  The other person I have not seen in a long time is Miss Donnas.  She
hasn't been round all week, but I know that Miss Hannah has seen her and
apparently she is ok.

I want to send this now.  This is the first time in a long time that I have been
able to write and I want to be certain that you get it.

I will try to write more later.

sub
--
Mistress

I just thought I would tell you about when I went to see Angela
Mistress.

No real reason, it's just that I have nothing to do here.  I've just talked with
Doreen for a long time but she has gone off early today.  She is very sweet to
me. She said she liked my outfit.  Oh yes, My outfit:  Ms Beatrice has given me
some clothes to wear occasionally.  She has told me that they are her clothes
and not mine and I must remember to look after them.  This one is an all in one,
well, like a boob-tube, but it goes from my breasts to my bottom, and it is very
tight (so you can see my horrid nipples unfortunately).  It is bright pink, and
Doreen said it looked lovely on me, but she did say that she could never wear
anything like that, and I told her that normally I couldn't either, and we
laughed.  She commented on how I have changed, and she said she was still sad
that I had lost my job.  She is so sweet.

Anyway, I was going to tell you about Angela.  Mrs Turner - but she told me to
call her Angela.   She collected me from Ms Beatrice's offices last week, and
they spent some time together in her office then she came out for me and we went
in her car.  She told me that she still couldn't believe that she had a lesbian
lover, and she giggled so much in the car. Saying about what her husband and her
mother might say if they knew.

She did also ask me if I liked going with her, and I told her that I did, very
much, and she asked me as we went into her house, what I was going to do, and I
told her that I was going to kiss her beautiful pussy until she came for me, and
she told me to undress first, because Patricia told her that I was just a little
lesbian slave who should never normally wear clothes.  So I took off my short
and skirt and she fondled me and took me into her living room, and she told me
to close the curtains and then to undress her.  She smelt wonderful Mistress. 
She had obviously bathed before she came to pick me up, and as I undressed her I
kissed the part of her body that was exposed, and when I took her bra off I
cuddled her large breasts in my hands and kissed and sucked at her nipples and
they grew in my mouth and she sat down and was nearly panting from me being
allowed to kiss her there and suck her lovely nipples into my mouth. 

Later, when she was calming down from me having fingered and sucked to her an
orgasm she did get to orgasm again just from having me suck and kiss her breasts
while she lay down.  Actually, I have just thought about why I like her breasts
so much and I know that it is just because they are so responsive like that.  It
makes me feel good that she gets pleasure from em playing with them and kissing
and sucking them.  That's why.

Anyway. I do like them, very much.  They are a little like Miss Hannah's.  Maybe
that is another reason why I like them so much.

She still plays with my bottom hole too. I don't think she thinks it sexual. 
It's just that sometimes, like when we were lying on her floor, she turned me
over onto my front and she stroked my bottom and then between my cheeks and she
put her finger into my bottom.  I lifted my bottom up off the floor for her, so
that she knew I was happy for her to do it, and she did it another time, while
we were in the kitchen getting a drink. She just put her hand between my cheeks
and pushed against my anus with her finger until it got inside of me.

You know I mentioned about not seeing Miss Donnas this week.  The one good thing
about that is that no-one else makes me catch their poo in my hands, and I have
to admit that I don't much like that, or having to lick my hands clean
afterwards.  She still has me to that.  At the time, I don't mind, not really,
but when I think about it I don't like it.  I guess I don't mind at the time
because she enjoys seeing me do it.  And I do want to please her.  But when I am
on my own I do think about it sometimes and think it is not so nice really.

Miss (Allison) has a new 'game' she likes to play sometimes.  Twice now, while
she has been laying on the floor watching television she has told me to go and
get some chocolate spread and she smears it onto my cunt and has me lay on the
floor on my back in front of her and she licks me every now and then while she
watches.  The other night Miss Hannah had some as well.  It's lovely when Miss
has her lovely young face at my cunt Mistress.  I shall never tire of seeing her
look at me as she puts her tongue onto me and into me. I mean, of course it is
always nice to have someone lick me there, but it is special to see her face
there, and to see her tongue on me. She has such a look of innocence and most of
the time (well almost all of the time) she isn't doing it to excite me at all,
its just because she wants to.  And I am SO very happy that she does.

Well, I have promised that I would make some tea at 2:00 so I better go and get
the kettle on.

I may write more later Mistress

sub   x
--

sub,

So glad to hear that you are getting your nipples fixed.  Life is so much easier
when one is pleased with one's body.  I am hoping you will allow yourself to be
photographed more often now that you will be happier with yourself. 
And I was wondering what had happened to you, sub, not having heard from you in
awhile.  And it is so nice to hear that everyone is pleased with everyone.  Are
they planning on taking you on vacation this summer?
I am so happy your life is rosy.  And it would appear that Angela treats you
less like what you are and more like just a lesbian lover?  Is that a pleasant
diversion for you?  Almost like a break from your duties? It's not surprising
that several women you come across aren't really able to be dominant the way you
are accustomed.
Take care and stay in touch

Lovingly,

Sasha

And so ends the month of June.  I will be compiling the letters from the rest of
the year.  The letters really dropped off in the latter half of the year because
everyone settled very well into their roles.  My role diminished because the
students became qualified teachers themselves.  I am saddened and thinking about
taking a new submissive under my wing.  I sincerely hope everyone enjoyed this
month's letters.  I have tried to respond to all of you that have written me and
will continue to do so.  If you like these letters so far, then please take a
moment to vote for them.  It, along with your letters to me, are the thanks that
makes this all worthwhile.

Sasha