LIFE AFTER COLLEGE THE FIRST FEW YEARS
After I graduated and passed my exams to get my license I didn't want to stay at
the big house so I bought a condo in a high raise on the beach with a view and
obtained a job with one of the large international accounting firms at the
office located not far from my condo.
I was dating and my boyfriend moved in with me. Sex was good with him but over
time I realized I needed something else. I would find myself fantasying about
being in the basement with the three stooges but not fighting this time, but
being tied up and used just as Barbara and Teresa were or of the times I spent
with Miss Bess and Mary Beth.
My personality for work and sex is TOTALLY different. At work I can be
aggressive, not a bitch but I don't take a back seat to anyone, yet in bed I
like to be submissive, both with men and women, but I really haven't been able
to come out and tell them that. With my last boyfriend (we broke up about six
months ago) I did get him to smack my ass during sex and even hold my wrists
sometimes. I have always enjoyed the doggie position and oral sex, as I can let
my mind imagine that I'm being taken and used.
Either I hadn't met the right person or just couldn't convey what I REALLY
wanted. I eventually broke up with my boyfriend and he moved out because he
wanted to start a family, kids, white picket fence and ME at home. Not what I'm
looking for, at least not right now so we broke up amicably.
Now I was alone with no one to be with or talk to. Mary Beth was in New York
working as an attorney and was planning to get married. Miss Beth and my father
were dead and I was having more intense dreams of my pledge time, of time with
Miss Bess, with Laura and of just being with someone that understood my sexual
urges. Many nights at home with my vibrator and imagination were all I had and
I knew that had to change.
That's when I again started to explore literature about sexual practices that I
had started in college and eventually to the Internet, chat rooms, picture
sights and discovered a world of submission and started reading stories of the
BDSM lifestyle. I can tell you that chat rooms can be fun but you sure do have
to talk to a lot of duds. I mean most of the men think the idea of BDSM is
"spread your legs and I fuck you fast and hard, slap your tits", then it's I cum
hard inside you as your have a wonderful orgasm.
Not a lot of imagination there but to be honest most men I think believe that
just because they have their 200 lbs. body laying on you with your legs spread
apart and their pelvis smacking into you a women is supposed to cum
"wonderfully". I do believe most women, if they could be brutally honest with
their men, they would tell them it does take a bit more then that (OK enough
soap box stuff on men and how they can be insensitive jerks, there are plenty of
wonderful men out there and I do enjoy sex with them) . But if you look long
enough you do find some good ones, but then as the wise man says be careful what
you look for, you might just find it.
