What Do You Really Want?

I haven't known him very long, and yet I find myself almost mourning his absence even before it starts after he told me he was going away. I know it's wrong to feel so possessive. Part of his attraction is his honor and devotion to those he loves. I so hope someday to be one of those people. But for this weekend he must be Daddy. I'd love to see him with his kids, I bet he is awesome. I wonder if they're as adorable as he is. I write to him, then go to chat and play online. I find a suitable candidate, then realize my mind is back on all those wonderful emails, stories and moments stolen together. I cut things short before they really get beyond polite with this dom and decide to just go to bed. I lie there feeling so restless. I can't get him out of my mind. Tossing and turning, again and again. At some point my husband rolls over and asks "Are you ok?" "Uh, yeah, just can't get comfortable." I lie there a little longer then decide I just can't take it anymore. I get up and get online researching flights and time zones. My daughter will be going to stay with a friend this weekend, maybe I can make an excuse. I say I just need some time alone to think. He looks at me a little concerned, but kisses me goodbye and lets me go.

Next thing I know I am on a puddle jumper to get to a real airport then over the ocean. A 12 hour flight. Sigh, I guess I know what I'll be doing. I occupy my time writing to him, for him. He has given me more information than I need to find him. How could he ever have thought I would do this. I hope I'm not being too scary. I just want to see him and maybe, only if I can get him alone for a moment I will say hello and steal a kiss.

It is night as I steal along near the camping area. The woods are dark and hide me well. There is some sense of danger as to what else may be out here. I observe a group around a camp fire. Soon the children are all sent to bed and the adults stay talking. I see him and feel like I can't breathe. He seems restless, pacing. Finally I hear him say, "I am just too wired to sleep, you mind watching the boys so I can take a walk?" Someone answers and he walks away into the wood.

I hurry after him. Trying to be quiet, but so afraid to miss this chance. Soon I close the distance. I see him stop and look behind him, but I am hidden. Soon he comes to a clearing. I have to hold back, not wanting to be seen yet. I count to 100 then approach the clearing. He is no where to be seen. Oh God, what am I doing here? What was I thinking? I am so nervous and frightened. He's going to think I'm crazy. I never should have done this. It's too soon for this kind of surprise. I turn to walk back, and run right into his chest.

"Hello Lauri", he says quietly, "Did you think I did not know you were here? I sensed your presence, that is why I decided to walk." I am breathless standing there. My heart is pounding like a hummingbird caught in my chest. What is he going to do? No one even knows I'm here. If feel stupid and irresponsible. Finally I take a deep breath and look into his eyes. I am amazed to see a mixture of lust and laughter. I begin to relax.

As if he was waiting for this, he pounces, grabbing me hard and pressing me close to him. Oh this is so much better than I even imagined. I am thankful his arms are around me for I feel so weak. He kisses me hungrily. I can feel his cock responding to the touch of our bodies and my body responds in turn. Finally he releases me and I fall to my knees. Instead of feeling bad or even self-conscious, it just feels so right. He reaches down and pets my head, running his hands through my hair. Again I relax into his touch and again he reacts, grabbing a huge handful of hair and pulling me up. I rise quickly but not very gracefully.

He pushes me back against a large tree, holding me there with one hand. Suddenly I am very afraid. "Why did you come here, Lauri? Did you think it would please me to find you spying on me, invading my life?" he asks brusquely. I can't answer. I know he's right, I have done something terrible. Tears form in my eyes, but I cannot speak. In his other hand he takes my chin and lifts my eyes to his. More quietly he asks, "Why are you here? Tell me." I feel compelled and start to answer several times, but keep stopping realizing everything I could say is just an excuse. Then I answer, "I'm sorry", and drop my eyes. He leans in and kisses me softly. Again he says "Tell me why you are here." I answer, "I just wanted to see you". Again he says, "Tell me why you really came all this way."

I stop and think. What is good enough? Why did I do this? I look at him again and after a very deep breath say, "I want you. I need you. I need to feel that I truly do belong to you, if only for a moment." "What do you want, Lauri? What do you want from me?" he asks. Finally I know, I answer with a voice on the edge of breaking, "Fuck me, Dog, please." "As the lady desires" he says, and grabs me under my arms and swings me around. He lays me down on a soft bed of leaves, he presses his chest against mine as he kisses me deeply. Oh this is what I have waited for. Our hands explore each others bodies, touching everywhere but lingering no where. He stops and rolls away propping his head on one hand.

"Stand up." I comply. "Undress for me the way you know I like." I start by running my hands over my arms, across my belly and up to my breasts. The shirt is thin and my nipples are obvious though the material. I slowly unbutton the shirt and let it fall away. Underneath is a sheer demi-bra, barely containing most of my breasts. I release the catch in the front and let my breast fall free, that always feels so good. I shrug my shoulders to drop the bra off me and remove my skirt. I turn around slowly, giving him a good view. I stop facing away and bend over to remove my shoes. I can see he remembers this from one of our encounters online and he smirks a little. My eyes go to his pants and I can tell he is enjoying the show. Looking between my legs I look into his eyes, as I reach up and take the edge of my panties in my hands and slowly reveal my the treasure beneath. After stepping out of them, I stay facing away. I spread my legs until they almost strain and then pull open the lips of my pussy, letting him see how much I am enjoying this.

"That's enough. Come here.” I walk closer to him as he lies back. "Stand over me." I hesitate but he does not, "NOW". "Spread you legs. Farther. Farther." I am almost in a split right above his chest. He reaches up and touches me, plunging 2 fingers into my pussy. I tighten up and moan at the intrusion. His thumb comes up to brush my clit. I shiver at the sensation and the intimacy of the moment. "Do not move." I stay perfectly still outside, but inside the butterflies are swarming. He grabs hold of me as if I am a bowling ball or something. I gasp, but do not pull away. "Look at me, Lauri". I look down into his eyes and they are so fiery and passionate.

"This is mine."

"Yes Dog"

"It belongs to me"

"Yes Dog"

"I will do with it as I please, when I please"

"Yes Dog" I feel myself becoming so wet I fear I will drip down his arm.

"You are mine"

"Yes Dog. Always Dog"

"What will you do for me?"

"Anything Dog"

"Anything?"

"Yes, Dog. Anything" And I realize it is true.

"I would love to take my time with you, but you know I can't." I can hear a touch of regret in his voice. "There will be time for that later, perhaps on a warm sandy beach or somewhere you never expect to see me" I shiver again, he still holds me tight. It feels oh so right. "For now I will answer your question about how I would react if we were really together." At that he pulls down hard and I fall against his chest. He grabs my breasts and pulls them to his mouth. He is rough and I love it. It feels as if he is out of control. I can't believe I am getting just what I want. My hands reach down and unfasten his shorts, pushing them down below his hips.

He pushes me away and says, "On your knees". I kneel, with him behind me. He pushes me down hard. I can feel his cock pushing against my slit. He leans over me and whispers, "You want the Dog?" "Yes" I answer. "Then I will take you as my namesake." At that he thrusts himself into me. Impaling me on his oh so hard and throbbing cock. My face is pushed into the ground, but all I can feel is him inside me. Filling me up. His tip pressing against my cervix. It feels as if I may bust. His hands grab my hips and I already have to fight not to cum. "Touch yourself, Lauri. Do not stop but do not cum until I say its time" "Yes, Dog," I say between thrusts. One hand reaches to rub my clit. I rub it hard, knowing that will help me to hold off, I hope long enough.

He begins to thrust into me harder and faster. I fear I will be torn apart, but I don't care. OMG, how am I going to wait? It seems so soon, and yet like forever before he says, "Now Princess, cum for me. NOW". I need no encouragement. I let myself go just as I feel him swell inside me. He shoots hard, like he has been waiting for me for so long. The waves of pleasure rock my body again and again. I just knew it would be this way. As we both seem to come back into ourselves, we fall to the ground. We look at each other, and I expect that awkward moment after the first time. Instead we catch each others eyes, and giggle. He grabs me and kisses me tenderly. I am jelly in his arms. I think to myself, yes anything.

As our breathing returns to normal, we both seem to feel the real world pressing in again. We roll away from each other and start finding our clothing and putting ourselves back together. As I finish putting on my shoes, I stand beside you. You take my hand and kiss it. We walk without talking back toward the campsite. Before we get too close, we stop. You take both hands and turn me to face you. You take my face in both of your hands and kiss my forehead. Looking in my eyes, you say "I am thrilled that we had this time together, but you know this was wrong. I am your Dom. Never do something like this without my permission again." "Yes, Dog," and I try to look away, but you won't let me. "I want you to go home now. There are two things for you to take with you. First, I give you my love, because you truly are becoming precious to me, and I can not wait to explore this world further with you. Second, I want you to think about why this was wrong, and write me a letter of apology. In this letter I expect you to devise an appropriate punishment. I may choose to use that one or one of my own devising, but I expect you to come up with something that would please me." You pull me tightly to you and kiss me thoroughly. "Now go Princess". And you walk away back into the camp. No one appears to be awake and I think this is good.

As I pick my way back to where I left the rental car I start to think about what to write. On the drive, I replay the scene over and over. As soon as I get on the plane, I open my laptop and begin to type. Hmmmm, I think something involving a lack of underwear and public exposure.........